I is de bitchy and Iz don like et

[vamullen]

Reading back on OOC logs this afternoon for the Kaerwyn rp, I have noticed, like many (if not all) of the muns around me, that I have been a complete and total bitch for the past several months, if not the past year. Yeah, this is hard for me to admit. I like to think of myself as a generally good natured person but these logs tell me rather planly that I'm not. I've tried to come up with excuses for myself in the past but the fact of the matter is I can't excuse myself for behavior like this anymore.

I snap at other muns. They're all usually voices too, and you know who you are without me naming names. I don't like to take anger out on people. But it's starting to happen more and more. I don't have anyone in RL to vent to or on: my sisters don't talk to me (probably because they feel like I abandoned them and hate me still) The one friend I have in Richmond has her own problems to deal with without mine to add onto it, and my best friend (mentioned earlier in this LJ) Is in Arkansas and I really don't want to burden him with the piddly stuff that happens in my life.

So yeah, no one to vent to. No one to vent on. There's only so many times That I can mutilate characters, and I can't mutilate other peoples characters. So I end up taking it out on other players.

I guess, in short, what I'm trying to say is that I'm sorry. I'll watch what I say and find other means to relieve stress.