Sweetest Rejection Yet Again...
Just when i thought i nailed that TD interview last week, i come home tonight to a lovely letter awaiting me on the dinner table. Where the fuck did it go wrong?? This is the second time it's happened and i don't know if there will be a third, quite frankly i don't care at this point. I had an interview with this nice lady from Sheraton earlier today, went even more smoothly so i hope at least they will call me for what few hours they have to offer. Worst comes to worst, i'll have to settle on some average Joe monkey job for a month or 2 just to make some cash. This census work is coming to an end by early July so yeah. Turns out people are alot idiotic than i thought. Well, most anyways. Day by day the anger only festers and grows, conserving, waiting for the precise, appropriate moment for release.
I watched Sam Dunns' METAL documentary earlier this week and Zombie is more intelligent than i thought. Most people don't necessarily plan on being the odd, outsider isolated type, one day you just wake up and that's what you've become. Nothing has proven true of this more than tonight. I will never belong to or think along the same thought patterns as certain groups. Too many materialistic brainwashed, easily solace finding meek minds in this world today. I guess that's a big reason why many suffer, are poor, are stupid and let others rule them. But i'm glad most of my sense of feeling came to a halt and froze long time ago, makes it much easier. I'm reading 3 books this summer. I DARE you to guess what they are=) Perspectives ever changing.
On a brigher note, through mutual friends and people giving goods away for reasons which they simply cannot attend, I purchased 2 sold out EMPEROR Floor tickets for the show on the 13th in NYC. A Few options remain on how to get down there but this shall be one hell of a trip. In fact, that entire week i will be done in the States.
Enough misery for now. Sleep, work, drugs, music, i'd like to torture certain women at the moment...just a little.
Fuck you very much.
I watched Sam Dunns' METAL documentary earlier this week and Zombie is more intelligent than i thought. Most people don't necessarily plan on being the odd, outsider isolated type, one day you just wake up and that's what you've become. Nothing has proven true of this more than tonight. I will never belong to or think along the same thought patterns as certain groups. Too many materialistic brainwashed, easily solace finding meek minds in this world today. I guess that's a big reason why many suffer, are poor, are stupid and let others rule them. But i'm glad most of my sense of feeling came to a halt and froze long time ago, makes it much easier. I'm reading 3 books this summer. I DARE you to guess what they are=) Perspectives ever changing.
On a brigher note, through mutual friends and people giving goods away for reasons which they simply cannot attend, I purchased 2 sold out EMPEROR Floor tickets for the show on the 13th in NYC. A Few options remain on how to get down there but this shall be one hell of a trip. In fact, that entire week i will be done in the States.
Enough misery for now. Sleep, work, drugs, music, i'd like to torture certain women at the moment...just a little.
Fuck you very much.