To the Imbreds amongst the marching Flock...
There are many ways we can follow through life, but a vast majority chooses to follow the herd on the wide and easily passable tarmac road that only leads to spiritual mediocrity and stagnation. At the end of the road they leave no trace of their existence behind and simply pass into oblivion. Like cattle they follow the individual in front of them, with little thought to what they are doing, and they walk straight into the nothingness. They choose this path because it offers them the least resistance and the most comfortable life.
There are other ways, though, other paths that man can follow through life. Naturally the paths our forefathers followed are overgrown today. Nobody has walked on these paths for a very long time, and the wild nature has reclaimed most of them. We have to search carefully to even find out they exist. However, these paths are not easy ways. Those who follow the overgrown paths will, on their way, stumble over mossy rocks and roots in dark forests, they will frequently slip and fall in the mud, get stuck in bogs and have to swim through dangerous currents. Apart from the occasional wanderer one might encounter out there, in the wilderness, it is also a very lonely path to follow. You mostly walk alone.
When the overgrown paths cross the tarmac road of the herd, the lone traveler - filthy, often messy and dressed in rags - will be met by a hail of abusive language; mockery, scorn, fear and even hatred. The cattle are used to obediently follow the individual in front of them with no intrusions. An individual traveling in another direction, or crossing the road, will always cause confusion and uncertainty in their featherbrained ranks.
The herd finds no mysterious secrets, no spiritual enlightenment or ancient lore on the tarmac road. The runes and golden pieces of the gods can only be found in the green grass or under the moss, on the overgrown paths. The enlightenment will only be achieved by the individual who leaves the footsteps of the person in front of him or her and looks up towards the sky, for a change. The ancient lore will only be learned by those who walk where the ancients once walked, and do like our forefathers did.
It is not easy to find the exit roads leading to the overgrown paths from the highway. Most people just rush by them, not even knowing they are there. You have to look for them, often in the most unlikely places, and even you might fail to find them. Others are more lucky, in the sense that they are given the directions by others. Destiny is perhaps all that matters, and those who are predetermined to find the overgrown paths will in any case eventually find them. Whether they like or not.
I am walking on such an overgrown path, and perhaps that is the why it sometimes is hard for people to comprehend what I am saying, doing and thinking about, and why many react with disgust or fear no matter what I do or say. But so what? I know what really matters in life and I only really care about the "spiritual heroes and heroines", the Einherjers and Valkyries I occasionally meet out there in the wilderness, who have found their own exit from the tarmac road. I only really care about the strong individuals who are out looking for the runes, the gold of the gods, in the green grass. I only really respect the others who do like me and walk on overgrown paths. The mediocre masses matter no whit. Valhalla is not for the sheep. ~VV
I wouldn't even call it necessarily xenophobia anymore. It's transfiguring into a greater fear, a stronger hate by the day. This terrorism, multicultural bullshit gushes endlessly from my pulsing head. A paradigm shift almost. A longing means to replace an existing culture to slowly overthrow and become the majority? Perhaps. 30-50 years from now i fear and cringe at the thought of my kinders not being able to obtain a career due to the towelhead across the desk. I see it everywhere. From every fucking street corner, coffeeshop, to the peacefulness of a bar washroom at 2 am. It's there. This untamed, natural wilderness. I can't even start or attempt a term for classification in the English langauge for this.
In other more insignificant news, but on a brighter note however, what i am hearing and is coming forth from creation is sounding better than ever before. I haven't been this impressed and my ears haven't been this happy in a LONG time. I'll post this just for fucks sake, for those with low attention spans and insignificant interests here...always nice to look back on experience, learn from your mistakes but even more importantly, those of others.
Appearance*
[ ] I am shorter than 5'4.
[ ] I have many scars.
[ ] I tan easily.
[ ] I wish my hair was a different color.
[x] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[x ] I have/I've had braces.
[ ] I wear glasses/contacts.
[x] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[ ] I have more than 2 piercings.
[ ] I have piercings in places besides my ears.
[ ] I have freckles.
*Family/Home Life*
[x] I've sworn at my parents.
[x] I've run away from home. *[I was like... six]
[ ] I've been kicked out of the house.
[x] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've had children.
[ ] I've lost a child.
*School/Work*
[x] I'm in school.
[x] I have a job
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[x] I almost always do my homework.
[x] I've missed a week or more of school.
[x] I've been on the Honor Roll.
[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[x] I've stolen something from my job [Nothing of value. Pens, food, mags or office supplies only]
[ ] I've been fired.
[x] I've skipped school.
*Embarrassment*
[ ] I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[ ] Disney movies still make me cry.
[ ] I've peed from laughing.
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[ ] I've glued my hand to something
[x] I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
[x] I've had my pants rip in public
*Health*
[ ] I was born with a disease/impairment.
[ ] I've gotten stitches.
[x] I've broken a bone. (too many)
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[x] I've sat in a doctors office with a friend.
[x] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I've had chicken pox.
*Traveling*
[x] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[x] I've been on a plane.
[x] I've been to Canada.
[ ] I've been to Mexico.
[x] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[ ] I've Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[x] I've been to Europe.
[ ] I've been to Africa.
[ ] I've been to Asia
[ ] I've been to South America
*Experiences*
[ ] I've gotten lost in my city.
[x] I've seen a shooting star.
[x] I've wished on a shooting star.
[x] I've seen a meteor shower.
[ ] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[x] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator
[x] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[ ] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[ ] I've been an abuse victim.
[x] I've gone skinny dipping.
[ ] I've played spin the bottle.
[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[x] I've crashed a car.
[x] I've been Skiing
[x] I've been in a play.
[x] I've met someone in person from the internet.
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[x] I've seen the Northern Lights.
[x] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[ ] I've flown kites on a rooftop
[ ] I've played chicken.
[x] I've played a prank on someone.
[x] I've ridden in a taxi.
[x] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[x] I've eaten Sushi.
[x] I've been snowboarding.
*Relationships*
[ ] I'm single (wouldn't really call it that)
[ ] I'm taken
[ ] I'm in a serious relationship, and wanna marry that person, but not quite yet
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[x] I've had someone cheat on me.
[ ] I've gone on a blind date
[ ] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[x] I have a fear of commitment.
[ ] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've gotten divorced.
[x]I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[x] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[x] I've kept something from a past relationship.
*Sexuality*
[x] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[ ] I am a cuddler.
[ ] I love to flirt.
[x] I've been kissed in the rain.
[ ] I've hugged a stranger.
[x] I have kissed a stranger
*Honesty/Crime*
[ ] I am a terrible liar.
[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[x] I've snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world
[x] I've cheated while playing a game.
[x] I've cheated on a test.
[x] I've run a red light.
[x] I've been suspended from school.
[x] I've witnessed a crime.
[x] I've been in a fist fight.
[x] I've been arrested.
[x] I've shoplifted.
*Drugs/Alcohol*
[x] I've consumed alcohol.
[x] I regularly drink.
[x] I've passed out from drinking.
[ ] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[ ] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[x] I'm a stoner sometimes
[x] I've snorted cocaine.
[x] I've eaten shrooms.
[ ] I've popped E.
[ ] I've inhaled Nitrous.
[ ] I've done hard drugs.
[x] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[x] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
[ ] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[x] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[ ] I take/used to take anti-depressants.
[x] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[ ] I've hurt myself on purpose.
[ ] I've woken up crying.
[ ] I've cried myself to sleep.
[x] I've seen a therapist.
*Death and Suicide*
[ ] I'm afraid of dying.
[ ] I hate funerals.
[x] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
[ ] Someone close to me has committed suicide.
[x] I've planned my own suicide.
[ ] I've attempted suicide.
[ ] Didn't have the balls to go through w/ it.
[ ] I've written a eulogy for myself.
*Materialism*
[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[ ] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[ ] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
[ ] I own something from Hot Topic.
[x] I own something from Pac Sun.
[ ] I collect comic books.
[x] I own something from The Gap.
[ ] I own something I got on e-bay.
[ ] I own something from Abercrombie.
[ ] I own a nice car.
*Political/Social Attitudes*
[x] In general, I don't like people.
[x] I'm very outgoing.
[x] I listen to political music.
[x] I'm Democratic.
[ ] I'm Republican.
[x] I'm liberal.
[ ] No party affiliation
[ ] I really just don't care
[ ] I hate tree huggin' liberals
[ ] I don't like Bush because he is dumb.
[x] I don't like Bush with my own reasons to back it up.
[ ] I am for Bush.
[ ] I'm religious.
[ ] I dress fairly modestly.
[ ] My attitude is, "If you've got it, flaunt it."
*Random*
[x] I can sing well.
[ ] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[ ] I open up to others easily.
[x] I watch the news.
[ ] I don't kill bugs.
[x] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[x] I curse regularly.
[x] I sing in the shower.
[ ] I am a morning person.
[ ] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[x] I'm a snob about grammar.
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[ ] I twirl my hair
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name
[ ] I love being neat
[ ] I love Spam
[ ] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day
[x] I bake well.
[ ] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue
[ ] I would wear pajamas to school.
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[x] I know how to shoot a gun.
[ ] I am in love with love.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes.
[ ] I eat fast food weekly.
[x] I believe in ghosts.
[ ] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[ ] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[x] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish.
[x] I love white chocolate
[ ] I bite my nails.
[ ] I play video games.
[x] I'm good at remembering faces.
[ ] I'm good at remembering names.
[x] I'm good at remembering dates.
[ ] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
Fuck you very much.
There are other ways, though, other paths that man can follow through life. Naturally the paths our forefathers followed are overgrown today. Nobody has walked on these paths for a very long time, and the wild nature has reclaimed most of them. We have to search carefully to even find out they exist. However, these paths are not easy ways. Those who follow the overgrown paths will, on their way, stumble over mossy rocks and roots in dark forests, they will frequently slip and fall in the mud, get stuck in bogs and have to swim through dangerous currents. Apart from the occasional wanderer one might encounter out there, in the wilderness, it is also a very lonely path to follow. You mostly walk alone.
When the overgrown paths cross the tarmac road of the herd, the lone traveler - filthy, often messy and dressed in rags - will be met by a hail of abusive language; mockery, scorn, fear and even hatred. The cattle are used to obediently follow the individual in front of them with no intrusions. An individual traveling in another direction, or crossing the road, will always cause confusion and uncertainty in their featherbrained ranks.
The herd finds no mysterious secrets, no spiritual enlightenment or ancient lore on the tarmac road. The runes and golden pieces of the gods can only be found in the green grass or under the moss, on the overgrown paths. The enlightenment will only be achieved by the individual who leaves the footsteps of the person in front of him or her and looks up towards the sky, for a change. The ancient lore will only be learned by those who walk where the ancients once walked, and do like our forefathers did.
It is not easy to find the exit roads leading to the overgrown paths from the highway. Most people just rush by them, not even knowing they are there. You have to look for them, often in the most unlikely places, and even you might fail to find them. Others are more lucky, in the sense that they are given the directions by others. Destiny is perhaps all that matters, and those who are predetermined to find the overgrown paths will in any case eventually find them. Whether they like or not.
I am walking on such an overgrown path, and perhaps that is the why it sometimes is hard for people to comprehend what I am saying, doing and thinking about, and why many react with disgust or fear no matter what I do or say. But so what? I know what really matters in life and I only really care about the "spiritual heroes and heroines", the Einherjers and Valkyries I occasionally meet out there in the wilderness, who have found their own exit from the tarmac road. I only really care about the strong individuals who are out looking for the runes, the gold of the gods, in the green grass. I only really respect the others who do like me and walk on overgrown paths. The mediocre masses matter no whit. Valhalla is not for the sheep. ~VV
I wouldn't even call it necessarily xenophobia anymore. It's transfiguring into a greater fear, a stronger hate by the day. This terrorism, multicultural bullshit gushes endlessly from my pulsing head. A paradigm shift almost. A longing means to replace an existing culture to slowly overthrow and become the majority? Perhaps. 30-50 years from now i fear and cringe at the thought of my kinders not being able to obtain a career due to the towelhead across the desk. I see it everywhere. From every fucking street corner, coffeeshop, to the peacefulness of a bar washroom at 2 am. It's there. This untamed, natural wilderness. I can't even start or attempt a term for classification in the English langauge for this.
In other more insignificant news, but on a brighter note however, what i am hearing and is coming forth from creation is sounding better than ever before. I haven't been this impressed and my ears haven't been this happy in a LONG time. I'll post this just for fucks sake, for those with low attention spans and insignificant interests here...always nice to look back on experience, learn from your mistakes but even more importantly, those of others.
Appearance*
[ ] I am shorter than 5'4.
[ ] I have many scars.
[ ] I tan easily.
[ ] I wish my hair was a different color.
[x] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[x ] I have/I've had braces.
[ ] I wear glasses/contacts.
[x] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[ ] I have more than 2 piercings.
[ ] I have piercings in places besides my ears.
[ ] I have freckles.
*Family/Home Life*
[x] I've sworn at my parents.
[x] I've run away from home. *[I was like... six]
[ ] I've been kicked out of the house.
[x] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've had children.
[ ] I've lost a child.
*School/Work*
[x] I'm in school.
[x] I have a job
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[x] I almost always do my homework.
[x] I've missed a week or more of school.
[x] I've been on the Honor Roll.
[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[x] I've stolen something from my job [Nothing of value. Pens, food, mags or office supplies only]
[ ] I've been fired.
[x] I've skipped school.
*Embarrassment*
[ ] I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[ ] Disney movies still make me cry.
[ ] I've peed from laughing.
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[ ] I've glued my hand to something
[x] I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
[x] I've had my pants rip in public
*Health*
[ ] I was born with a disease/impairment.
[ ] I've gotten stitches.
[x] I've broken a bone. (too many)
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[x] I've sat in a doctors office with a friend.
[x] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I've had chicken pox.
*Traveling*
[x] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[x] I've been on a plane.
[x] I've been to Canada.
[ ] I've been to Mexico.
[x] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[ ] I've Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[x] I've been to Europe.
[ ] I've been to Africa.
[ ] I've been to Asia
[ ] I've been to South America
*Experiences*
[ ] I've gotten lost in my city.
[x] I've seen a shooting star.
[x] I've wished on a shooting star.
[x] I've seen a meteor shower.
[ ] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[x] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator
[x] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[ ] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[ ] I've been an abuse victim.
[x] I've gone skinny dipping.
[ ] I've played spin the bottle.
[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[x] I've crashed a car.
[x] I've been Skiing
[x] I've been in a play.
[x] I've met someone in person from the internet.
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[x] I've seen the Northern Lights.
[x] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[ ] I've flown kites on a rooftop
[ ] I've played chicken.
[x] I've played a prank on someone.
[x] I've ridden in a taxi.
[x] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[x] I've eaten Sushi.
[x] I've been snowboarding.
*Relationships*
[ ] I'm single (wouldn't really call it that)
[ ] I'm taken
[ ] I'm in a serious relationship, and wanna marry that person, but not quite yet
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[x] I've had someone cheat on me.
[ ] I've gone on a blind date
[ ] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[x] I have a fear of commitment.
[ ] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've gotten divorced.
[x]I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[x] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[x] I've kept something from a past relationship.
*Sexuality*
[x] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[ ] I am a cuddler.
[ ] I love to flirt.
[x] I've been kissed in the rain.
[ ] I've hugged a stranger.
[x] I have kissed a stranger
*Honesty/Crime*
[ ] I am a terrible liar.
[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[x] I've snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world
[x] I've cheated while playing a game.
[x] I've cheated on a test.
[x] I've run a red light.
[x] I've been suspended from school.
[x] I've witnessed a crime.
[x] I've been in a fist fight.
[x] I've been arrested.
[x] I've shoplifted.
*Drugs/Alcohol*
[x] I've consumed alcohol.
[x] I regularly drink.
[x] I've passed out from drinking.
[ ] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[ ] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[x] I'm a stoner sometimes
[x] I've snorted cocaine.
[x] I've eaten shrooms.
[ ] I've popped E.
[ ] I've inhaled Nitrous.
[ ] I've done hard drugs.
[x] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[x] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
[ ] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[x] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[ ] I take/used to take anti-depressants.
[x] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[ ] I've hurt myself on purpose.
[ ] I've woken up crying.
[ ] I've cried myself to sleep.
[x] I've seen a therapist.
*Death and Suicide*
[ ] I'm afraid of dying.
[ ] I hate funerals.
[x] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
[ ] Someone close to me has committed suicide.
[x] I've planned my own suicide.
[ ] I've attempted suicide.
[ ] Didn't have the balls to go through w/ it.
[ ] I've written a eulogy for myself.
*Materialism*
[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[ ] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[ ] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
[ ] I own something from Hot Topic.
[x] I own something from Pac Sun.
[ ] I collect comic books.
[x] I own something from The Gap.
[ ] I own something I got on e-bay.
[ ] I own something from Abercrombie.
[ ] I own a nice car.
*Political/Social Attitudes*
[x] In general, I don't like people.
[x] I'm very outgoing.
[x] I listen to political music.
[x] I'm Democratic.
[ ] I'm Republican.
[x] I'm liberal.
[ ] No party affiliation
[ ] I really just don't care
[ ] I hate tree huggin' liberals
[ ] I don't like Bush because he is dumb.
[x] I don't like Bush with my own reasons to back it up.
[ ] I am for Bush.
[ ] I'm religious.
[ ] I dress fairly modestly.
[ ] My attitude is, "If you've got it, flaunt it."
*Random*
[x] I can sing well.
[ ] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[ ] I open up to others easily.
[x] I watch the news.
[ ] I don't kill bugs.
[x] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[x] I curse regularly.
[x] I sing in the shower.
[ ] I am a morning person.
[ ] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[x] I'm a snob about grammar.
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[ ] I twirl my hair
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name
[ ] I love being neat
[ ] I love Spam
[ ] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day
[x] I bake well.
[ ] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue
[ ] I would wear pajamas to school.
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[x] I know how to shoot a gun.
[ ] I am in love with love.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes.
[ ] I eat fast food weekly.
[x] I believe in ghosts.
[ ] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[ ] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[x] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish.
[x] I love white chocolate
[ ] I bite my nails.
[ ] I play video games.
[x] I'm good at remembering faces.
[ ] I'm good at remembering names.
[x] I'm good at remembering dates.
[ ] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
Fuck you very much.