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[vampyres666]

i gave in and lost him. now they hate me. Not justin, just his family. his mom already did hate me. yesterday was a disaster. i lost my fiance. i gave him up. it really wasn't fair to him anyways, i didn't love him like i used to. really fucking hurt right now. and so is he. i hurt cause i hurt him. i hate hurting people.
My friend joel, he's amazing. he's been at my side the whole time. holding my hand comforting me. wanting to take my pain away from me, wanting to take my tears and cry for me. i don't know what to do.