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nothing special really going on...had a fun weekend with one of my best friends Tina...i miss ehr...i was just thinking about how when i move in may that its gonna be the hardest thing to say bye or later to my two best friends mel and tina...they've gotten me through alot and i'm gonna miss them like crazy i dont know if i would have gotten has far as i have if it weren't for those two...whenever i think about it i get teary eyed and long for those days when no one was worrying about goodbyes or really growing up yet...but come may we all get a good dose of heres the world lets see how u fair alone...i mean i know they'll always be there and i can call them whenever but its hard knowing they just cant come visit it me or in return me going to visit them...i know i'm mainly talking about these two of my friends but i'm gonna have just as hard a time parting with all my friends...these people have taught me to stand strong and if i ever faultered they'd be there to support me and give me that added strength i need to walk tall and continue on...i mean my friends made my living hell barable and then they taught me it wasnt hell and i could and should enjoy it...its so hard i dont know what i'm going to do...i want so much to just take them all with me when i leave but i know that being an adult doesnt have that luxuary...so i'll go on and move to utah to be with becky the girl of my dreams...the woman i'm gonna marry...and i'll know that i'll be happy with her and things will be hard and that i'll be there for her and she'll be there for me...but i'm gonna miss the family i've created here...my family of friends...this family was the one i chose...this family is the one that chose me...there is nothing like that in the entire world...i mean blood is blood and that is always family but those ties you make along the way...those strong emotional bonds that we share with ppl can and do become strong and as thick if not thicker than blood...these band of friends i carry in my heart this group of misfits that fit so well in my world i'm gonna miss greatly and i dotn knwo how i'm gonna do it without them haveing an every day effect on my life...i love them dearly and will miss them greatly...lets just hope they dont forget me....i love these ppl they are a part of my soul and they are my family