Tacos
Well after the order from Brit I have to update this site. Why? I think she is rather bored. Pity that. lol I woke up today at 5 am. I went to bed at 10 pm cuz well actually I didn't mean to go to bed. lol So I took a shower at 5 in the morning. I mean damn I don't even do that for school. *hates herself* Oh well. I was tired from Gym and Dance and than the prep rally. Now that was fun. D and I were basically either shouting like mad or scaring people with the friendly gestures of life. lol I think Julie had to step in to help the poor people by us. I was kinda zoning out by then. I found out also that Amber and Matt are back together. *shudders* It's not surprising, but me no wanna see cuddling in public. Why? Cuz I like cheese, but yea my best hopes for those two. *sighs* Love now that is a strang topic to me. I see so many girls with so many boys, but does the relationship ever matter? More than often it doesn't. Sure I think some people should have second chances and go for another run with some better luck, but damn sometimes it's like move on! That could go for any damn cheerleader or people I know, but still sometimes I see people say they are in love and it's just bullshit. I kinda wanna laugh at their childish acts too, but yea they can hope. As I mentioned I have been more serious lately. Thank God for D and perfume. Or snickers. lol She keeps me laughing. Not many do that. Some just plain wear me out. lol Anyways Kung Fu is going good and piano is being fun. I started a new song cuz I was so damn bored. Sometimes I'm like Zzzzz I need something new! So yea started a new piece. I need more work on my others, but fresh work is always kind to someone from time to time. lol I saw this site about a Temple in China and I was like holy shit I wanna go! The temple is a Shaolin one. With fighting monks and lessons in Kung Fu and all that stuff. I'm very interested in actually thinking of going there someday. Maybe when I get a good job and done some shit in life I could think of going to my homeland. lol I been wanting peace lately. I been so tired and it isn't the I need sleep tired. I can go days without sleep. I don't see sleep as something that important. I just wanna have silence, air, *sighs* an imaginary world. lol Some people can't stand being alone. I can. I was alone and still am. Sure people say I'll always be with you and what not, but it is a lie. It's impossible. Sides my idea of being alone is different from others. In anycase I do like being alone most often. I feel like I could live alone for however long need be just on a whim. Sorry I don't make sense. Doesn't matter. I think I may have mentioned this, but I get so damn annoyed by people who don't try for anything in life. It's like they have no goals, but to live off of others. Makes me wanna say go shut the fuck up and stop complaining. So many lives have been so much worse than others, yet I still hear complaints. Sure there are moments where we may forget this, but stop thinking of yourself. We have to realize in this world there is more than you and your family or friends. There are moments when silence is wise, but that does not mean life should be. *sighs* One line keeps going through my head when I get too thinkitive on the properties of silence. "This is a place of light and music." Those places can be anywhere and everywhere. It is only us that makes them so, but not so. Animals and insects themselves creat music. You just have to listen. Silence is good then. *sighs again* I think I have ranted enough. Seriously my thoughts hold no specific thread sometimes it's amusing. Sides my whole mentioning goals thing reminded me of those shitty tapes in school about some boring lame ass way to make the world better. If I wanted to make the world better I think I'd need some drugs and a notebook. That way my drug induced thoughts could help the world become shittier. Uh oh damn going into melodramatic mode. lol Damn well I guess I should end it before anything else might set off destruction. Poor tacos..poor tacos. Alicia my heart goes out to you. I love you like hell and taking your life would harm not just yourself, but the ones that love you. I know you know this, but I think your tired. I think you are also a little selfish. In one way. You can be easily tempered with in your emotions from Mark that you forget all else. You forget the ones that love you. Still love...such a strange topic to me. I apologize Aliica, just please talk about your problems to anyone who can listen before making actions. Love ya sugar spanish billy taco girl. Ok I gotta end this. My mom is shouting go clean shit even though if she didn't shout it at me, I would do it anyways. I think she likes her own voice. Psshh or just being repetitive. Bye
Ai,
Kaitlyn
Ai,
Kaitlyn