Type
Title: Type
Paring: Kenbin and Hyukbin
Rating: NC 17
Warning: Cheating
Summary: Jaehwan loves Hongbin and Sanghyuk can’t say no.
Hongbin and Jaehwan have been exclusive for a while now, at least for a few months and for a group that has only been promoting for a year that is a long time. Jaehwan was so enamored with Hongbin, he seemed to be a completely different type of human than the rest of them. He was more than just objectively attractive, he was humble, and every single feature about him was handsome. The way he smiled was handsome, how his smile was slightly crooked and flashed so many teeth and to top it all off those dimples that added such charm. If Jaehwan looked at Hongbin for too long he honestly started to feel light headed, how could someone so obviously attractive look at him in the same light? Jaehwan would laugh with the others and proclaim that he was completely confident in his looks, now and pre-debut, but honestly who could compare with Hongbin? That was setting anyone up for failure.
Jaehwan smiled down at Hongbin as he buried his head into Jaehwan’s stomach, head in his lap. Jaehwan smoothed his fingers through Hongbin’s hair while his other rested on his side, loosing himself in the profile of Hongbin’s pale skin and sharp jaw. After a few moment’s Hongbin’s eyes opened and he looked up at Jaehwan, smiling sweetly and tightening his hold around Jaehwan’s waist. Jaehwan’s heart beat faster, his fingers moving quickly to gently trace under Hongbin’s eye down to the corner of his lip and pressed against that dimple, watching it become more prominent. Hongbin leaned up, tilting his head to fit his lips perfectly against Jaehwan’s, easily stealing Jaehwan’s breath. Jaehwan moved his hand to run through Hongbin’s hair, which was still soft despite the constant bleaching it went through coupled with the pounds of hair products they had to put up with daily.
Hongbin pulled away slowly, their lips making a soft sound when they disconnected and Jaehwan already missed the connection, “What?” Hongbin spoke softly, a small shy smile on his lips.
Jaehwan pulled Hongbin closer, he was never close enough, and rubbed his nose against Hongbin’s, just enjoying the other being so close to him, “You’re beautiful.”
It felt dumb saying it, but the smile he got from Hongbin was well worth it, and how he ducked his head to hide it into Jaehwan’s shoulder was the most rewarding. Jaehwan pulled Hongbin into his lap, leaning back against the couch and running his fingers over Hongbin’s back, listening to him breath. He ran his fingertips over each and every vertebrae, feeling most of them through his skin until he stopped just short of his tail bone, slipping his fingers just barley up Hongbin’s shirt to run them against his lower back. He smiled from the soft hum against his neck and didn’t stop even after Hongbin’s breathing had evened out.
Jaehwan always hated and loved waking Hongbin up. Hongbin looked so peaceful in his sleep, so relaxed while his mind was at ease and Jaehwan didn’t want to rip him away from that sweet bliss. However, those sleepy, unfocused eyes that blinked up at Jaehwan with that adorably confused look made him want to push Hongbin back into bed so he could kiss every single part of him, which he would indulge himself occasionally when they weren’t busy. Unfortunately that wasn’t too often however.
Jaehwan pulled Hongbin closer to him, pressing his chest closer to Hongbin’s back while kissing his neck repeatedly. Hongbin giggled softly, tilting his head just so Jaehwan had enough room while running his thin fingers over the ones wrapped around his waist. Hongbin turned his head to look behind him, flipping to be on his back so he could press his lips against Jaehwan’s. Jaehwan responded quickly, moving to hover above Hongbin and kiss him deeply, running his tongue over his teeth while he felt his sides. Hongbin’s small whimpers drove Jaehwan to press a bit harder, move slightly faster because he always got so impatient when it came to Hongbin. He pulled off their clothing just to reconnect their mouths in a sloppy kiss, staying like that for a few long moments while rubbing the soft skin of Hongbin’s inner thighs. Hongbin broke away first, his face flushed and his hair disheveled, the sight caused Jaehwan’s breathe to catch in his throat.
“Hyung…”
The desperation in Hongbin’s voice caused Jaehwan to moan softly through clenched teeth and he ducked down to nip at Hongbin’s skin while forcing his legs to spread wider for him. Hongbin smiled albeit nervously as he threw his arm over his eyes. Jaehwan grabbed whatever liquid was closest to them, some lotion he didn’t bother to read the name of, and chuckled softly at Hongbin. He gently moved Hongbin’s arm from his face, pressing kisses from his shoulder all the way down to the tip of his ring finger, smiling against it.
“Don’t hide.” He smiled brightly, pressing his face against Hongbin’s hand when he lightly touched Jaehwan’s cheek.
Jaehwan was always so careful with Hongbin, like he was a delicate doll and could break in an instant if he was careless. The press of his fingers inside Hongbin were slow but deliberate as he savored every flutter of Hongbin’s eyelashes or how his lips would part slightly more when he gasped from the way Jaehwan would move his fingers inside of him. Hongbin quickly became too impatient and slowly reached between them to loosely hold Jaehwan’s wrist, not stopping the steady movement of his hand but instead moving with it. Jaehwan swallowed hard and panted into Hongbin’s mouth as he licked across Jaehwan’s open lips. It always surprised Jaehwan with how straight forward Hongbin was during sex, the fingers curled loosely around his wrist stimulating him more than he would care to admit, causing him to push them that much harder into Hongbin just to watch how his eye lashes fluttered. Sometimes Jaehwan wondered if Hongbin was honestly shy or was it a coy game he liked to play with everyone around him. That smile that was just a bit too knowing, a bit too sly which got Jaehwan thinking maybe he didn’t know everything about Hongbin which only seemed to excite him further. Jaehwan bit his bottom lip hard to muffle his groan when he pushed into Hongbin because he whimpered softly every time Jaehwan first pushed into him and Jaehwan needed to hear it clearly. Jaehwan picked up speed quickly until Hongbin had to put one of his hands above him to press against the wall to keep his head from hitting it while his other hand never left Jaehwan whether it was his hair or the back of his neck. Jaehwan knew he was close, he felt as if his stomach was slowly tightening, preparing to burst so he pushed Hongbin’s legs a little farther apart, a little higher as he leaned over him to push into him that much harder until he came with a loud moan that followed by Hongbin’s voice shouting out, signaling his climax along with the tightening around Jaehwan.
Jaehwan stayed like that for probably longer than he should have, still inside of Hongbin, resting over him and kissing his lips softly over and over again until Hongbin giggled and gently pushed Jaehwan off of him only to be pulled back into Jaehwan, his nose nuzzling into Hongbin’s neck. Hongbin gave a breathy chuckle, closing his eyes and enjoying their proximity, easily falling asleep. Jaehwan wasn’t far behind him, tracing small shapes lightly into Hongbin’s hip while looking over his face. Yes, Hongbin was definitely a different type of human.
Recently something has been different, Hongbin acts the same, and he still smiles shyly and has laughs full of cute dimples and teeth, but something seems off. However, it is just normal enough for almost everyone to not notice, everyone but Sanghyuk. At first Sanghyuk doesn’t pay much attention to how, lately, Hongbin is becoming touchier, and he just assumed their relationship was only improving which excited him; he naturally wanted to be close to all of his hyungs. However, as time moved on his closeness seemed to be a bit strange and it was getting harder and harder for Sanghyuk to continue to not take notice of how Hongbin would look at him differently than the others, or how he would hug him or just make any sort of physical contact with him more and more often. It made Sanghyuk feel weird, but more confused than anything else because he acted the same way with Jaehwan and something about that didn’t feel right. Sanghyuk knew about Jaehwan and Hongbin, all of them did, which was why it felt so wrong to feel a spike of arousal every time Hongbin’s hand moved to far up his thigh, how good it felt when Hongbin hugged him more often than usual lately. Sanghyuk hated himself for it. He kept quiet about it, tried his best to laugh at Hongbin and treat him like he would any of the others but it was hard when Hongbin, probably the most attractive man alive, was becoming all touchy feely with you.
Sanghyuk doesn’t think he likes men, however there is something about Hongbin that he can’t deny makes him want to just touch him. He is inhumanly attractive and he has no obvious poor qualities which seemed to not fit the definition of human and if anyone in Vixx was qualified to know that Sanghyuk was sure it would be him. Sanghyuk knew he probably should have talked to Hongbin about this because now he can’t pretend that something weird isn’t happening. He stopped lying to himself when he walked through the living room and only glanced over to see Jaehwan and Hongbin watching television, Honbin’s head in Jaehwan’s lap, but Hongbin was looking at him, and that glint in his eye caused Sanghyuk to feel light headed as he rushed out of the room because he knew Hongbin was doing this on purpose. However, Sanghyuk didn’t try to talk to Hongbin nor did he tell anyone his thoughts because deep down he got some sick amusement out of it and it made him sick to his stomach to think about it.
Sanghyuk blinked sleepily at his reflection in the mirror as he slowly brushed his teeth before going to bed. They had all just returned from their schedules and Sanghyuk was more than ready to go to bed. He leaned over the sink and spat, turning the water on to cup some into his mouth and swish it around. He heard the bathroom door opening then shutting but paid no mind, it wasn’t like they hadn’t all gotten ready for bed before at the same time, as he spat out the water and turned off the faucet. He stood up and looked in the mirror but gasped, jumping slightly at seeing Hongbin behind him, leaning against the wall and looking back at Sanghyuk through the mirror, a large smile on his face. Sanghyuk put a hand to his chest, his heart rate speeding up now from the anxiety of being in a small confined space with Hongbin alone.
Sanghyuk turned around and laughed, a bit nervously, “Hyung, you scared me.”
Hongbin’s smile turned quickly less innocent and Sanghyuk swallowed nervously at the way his eyelashes fluttered a bit and how dark his eyes were as he stepped forward, innocently putting his hand on Sanghyuk’s arm but for some reason, to Sanghyuk, it felt anything but innocent.
“I did? Sorry Hyukie.”
Sanghyuk swallowed hard again, feeling like he needed to leave as soon as possible because something was crackling in the air and it was so, so wrong.
“Ahh…I am done in here so...so it is all yours!” He laughed, trying to not make it nervous, as he went to leave the bathroom but Hongbin grabbed his arm instead.
“Actually, Sanghyuk-ah, I want to ask you something really fast.”
Sanghyuk swallowed and slowly turned to face Hongbin, feeling uncomfortable with how unreadable his generic, but handsome, smile, “Yea hyung?”
Sanghyuk’s eyes widened when Hongbin took a step closer, so obviously invading Sanghyuk’s personal space and causing him to take a step back but that put him right against the door which only caused Hongbin to smile and close the distance between them once again. Sanghyuk glanced nervously to the side, looking at the door handle and urging himself to reach out and just open it so he can escape. However Hongbin leaned closer, their lips mere centimeters apart and Hongbin just looked so fucking good it caused Sanghyuk to freeze. Sanghyuk tore his eyes away from Hongbin, moving his hands to Hongbin’s shoulders so he could push him away because he didn’t know what was happening right now and he knew that this would upset Jaehwan and that was literally the last thing on this planet that Sanghyuk wanted to do because he fucking knew how much Hongbin meant to him.
“Hyung, wait I think-“
He was cut off by Hongbin, “Then don’t think Hyukie.” He giggled softly, pressing closer to Sanghyuk.
Sanghyuk shook his head, eyebrows furrowed which only caused Hongbin to smile more before pressing their lips together and Sanghyuk feels his stomach drop in despair and his heart start to flutter. Sanghyuk really wanted to push Hongbin away, fuck he really was going to but the way Hongbin tilted his head to the side, making their lips fit just perfectly and how his hands ran through his hair caused Sanghyuk to melt and pull Hongbin closer to him. Sanghyuk willingly opened his mouth for Hongbin’s tongue to slide in and the way it slid across his own made Sanghyuk weak in the knees. He gasped when Hongbin slid a hand into his pajama pants and pumped his partially erect member until his was fully hard and aching. Sanghyuk broke away from the kiss, his fingers trembling on Honbin’s shoulders, caught in the battle to either push Hongbin away or pull him closer which left him incapable to do anything but whimper when Hongbin dropped to his knees. Sanghyuk felt panicked and he tried to fall through the door but that was seemingly not going to happen. Hongbin pulled out Sanghyuk’s erection quickly and easily took it all into his mouth. Sanghyuk slapped a hand over his mouth and let out a muffled groan, his other hand clenching into a fist at his side as Hongbin did anything but tease. Sanghyuk timidly glanced down at Hongbin but wished he hadn’t because he felt as if his entire body heaved from his conflicted emotions at the sight of Hongbin’s pretty face so close to him with his pretty lips wrapped around his dick and sucking in the most obscene way. Sanghyuk didn’t last long, he bit into the palm of his hand hard when he came and Hongbin swallowed all of it, licking up what had escaped and causing Sanghyuk to wiggle because the stimulation was way to fucking much. Hongbin quickly got up, smacked his lips a few times then gave Sanghyuk that same handsome smile.
“Sleep well Hyukie!” He ruffled Sanghyuk’s hair before leaving the bathroom, leaving a frozen Sanghyuk behind him.
Sanghyuk slowly slid down the door until his butt hit the floor painfully, tears welling in his eyes because he didn’t know what to do. He felt scared, aroused, and lost all at the same time and it was really starting to hurt. He rose a trembling hand to lock the door so he could crawl to the toilet and dry heave until he finally threw up everything he had eaten for dinner, hot tears running down his face.
He couldn’t look Jaehwan in the eyes after that incident, which was starting to cause some commotion amongst the others and Sanghyuk swore he was alright, he was just not feeling too well. He felt like he was going to throw up again with Jaehwan frowned, putting an arm around him and exclaiming loudly how Sanghyuk needs to get better. Normally Sanghyuk would find it endearing and laugh with him, maybe crack a few jokes, but he glances up and there is Hongbin, with that unreadable smile and he feels like he is going to be sick.
It gets worse after that incident, Hongbin is much touchier with Sanghyuk and Sanghyuk is becoming more and more paranoid that it is beginning to be too obvious to everyone, especially Jaehwan. However, they all seem to be acting different, even Hongbin which Sanghyuk thinks is so unfair because how come he gets to act like nothing is wrong, like he doesn’t corner Sanghyuk and pull him into a kiss in the dressing rooms or he doesn’t swallow his fucking come after he sucks him dry at night, and then laugh and cuddle with Jaehwan like nothing happened. Sanghyuk wants to bash his head in and he has contemplated doing it more and more often as time goes by because he can’t sleep, he can’t eat, and hell he can barely function properly.
Sanghyuk swallows hard when Hakyeon sits him down in an empty room, a worried expression on his face.
“Hyukie-gun, what is wrong?”
Sanghyuk swallows hard once more, shaking his head, “Nothing is wrong hyung, I just feel off lately is all.” He looked down, squeezing his eyes shut and praying over and over again that Hakyeon accepts his excuse.
“Hyuk, something has to be wrong, you look really sick, do you think you need to see a doctor?” Hakyeon reached out a comforting hand to gently rub his back and Sanghyuk shakes his head.
“No hyung…I-I think all I need is some rest, I have been a bit stressed lately.” Sanghyuk even rose his head to give a weak smile.
He felt terrible for lying to Hakyeon, who accepted his excuse with a hug and told him he would always be there for him, which only caused Sanghyuk to feel even sicker. Sanghyuk waited for a few minutes until Hakyeon left to stand up on wobbly legs and walk out of the room to maybe go get something to eat but something caught his eye. He looked over at the couch to see Taekwoon looking at him and he froze, eyes going wide because even though Taekwoon didn’t say anything, Sanghyuk knew what he was trying to get across. Bile quickly rose in Sanghyuk’s throat, he knows, and he quickly turned away to speed walk into the bathroom and lock the door, leaning over the toilet but all he could do was dry heave because he hasn’t eaten in the past few days.
Sanghyuk was beginning to feel like he should just never use the bathroom again, or maybe drag Hakyeon or Wonshik in with him, as Hongbin presses him into the wall with a kiss that is all tongue and teeth. Hongbin pulls away and kisses Sanghyuk’s jaw, a hand pressing into the obvious bulge in Sanghyuk’s pants causing him to pant and curse under his breath.
Hongbin kisses Sanghyuk’s jaw over to his ear to lick the shell and whisper hotly, “Fuck me Hyuk-ah.” While punctuation his words, Hongbin squeezed over Sanghyuk’s clothed erection, causing him to choke on air.
Sanghyuk opened his lips that were trebling, “H-hyung…” His voice was weak, broken and he wished Hongbin would hear how much fucking pain he was in but Hongbin only smiled and continued to whisper into his ear.
“I touched myself thinking of you Hyuk-ah, I need you to fuck me.”
Sanghyuk felt as if some of his brain was leaking out of his skull but that couldn’t be right. He felt himself nod and everything seemed to move too fast and to slow at the same exact time. It felt like it wasn’t his body that pressed Hongbin into the wall as he shoved three fingers into him, knuckle deep while Hongbin quietly whimpered for more, or when he pushed his erection inside that incredibly tight body and he had to bite Hongbin’s shoulder to keep from moaning out too loud. His eyebrows furrowed and buried his head into Hongbin’s shoulder, biting his lip as tears welled up in his eyes from the strong mixed emotions he felt. His hips started up quickly though, setting a fast pace that pushed him deep inside of Hongbin until he was coming, biting his lip so hard that he tasted the coppery taste of blood in his mouth. He stayed there breathing deeply, blissful in his post orgasm state because nothing was really important at the moment. He moved back a bit and blinked, Hongbin turning around with a pleased smile as he leaned forward to kiss Sanghyuk who quickly realized what had happened and had to shove Hongbin away because he was certain he was going to puke up something this time.
Sanghyuk didn’t sleep for even a minute that night, his mind was too busy and the guilt he felt weighed much too heavy in his stomach. He laid on his back, staring up into the darkness and doing his best to hold back tears every now and then because he just got done crying for what felt like days and, frankly, he didn’t want to cry anymore. It only further exhausted him, which would be nice if he could actually fall asleep. Sanghyuk licked his lips, they were dry, his whole mouth felt dry and he decided maybe a glass of water would help. He slowly dragged himself out of bed and shuffled out of the room, glancing at the time to see the bright numbers tell him it was three in the morning. Sanghyuk went into the kitchen and grabbed a bottle of water downing half of it when a voice behind him caused him to nearly jump out of his skin.
“You should go sleep. You are worrying everyone.”
Sanghyuk quickly turned around and his stomach dropped when he saw Taekwoon open the fridge to get water also. Sanghyuk shuffled back and bowed, apologizing softly and glancing up to Taekwoon but his sharp look made Sanghyuk recoil a bit.
Taekwoon looked away drinking again before putting his water bottle back. “Don’t apologize to me.” He moved around Sanghyuk and left him alone in the kitchen.
Sanghyuk covered his face with one hand, tears flowing freely now down his face. His shoulders shook a bit as his fingers gave out and the water fell to the floor spilling all over it and wetting Sanghyuk’s pants. He didn’t care, however, as he slowly slid to the floor, bringing his other hand up to also cover his face as his shoulders shook. He curled his knees closer to his body that shook with his sobs that he tried so desperately to keep quite. He didn’t even notice how wet he was getting from the cold water that surrounded him.
Sanghyuk tried so hard to be normal, to seem ok but it wasn’t working especially when this weird ripple effect suddenly happened around him and he became increasingly paranoid. He smiled weakly at the interview they were at, feeling happy that there was distance between him and Hongbin. He actually started to feel much better as the interview went on, he looked around but then he made eye contact with Jaehwan and he felt as if the entire building was collapsing around him. He looked so conflicted, so unlike himself and Sanghyuk knew exactly why which caused a stabbing pain in his chest. He looked suspicious, he looked like he knew something was happening but he didn’t wasn’t to admit that he was suspicious because he wasn’t sure. Sanghyuk glanced next to Jaehwan but he came into eye contact with Taekwoon, who sat right beside Jaehwan and his stomach flipped. Taekwoon closed his eyes and looked away, his face emotionless and it hurt so badly. Sanghyuk had to fake cough because he felt like he was going to get sick again. His hands trembled and he quickly folded them in his lap, willing them to stop but they wouldn’t. He slowly looked back up, Jaehwan wasn’t looking at him but instead at the MC but Sanghyuk knew that his smile wasn’t real, it didn’t reach his eyes which instead looked so empty and it was absolutely terrifying to see Jaehwan out of all of them looking soulless and broken. Sanghyuk turned to see Hongbin, looking better than ever, a bright smile on his lips as he turned to meet Sanghyuk’s eyes and his smile morphed into something that hurt Sanghyuk to the very core.
Sanghyuk felt like, for the first time in his life, that he wanted to die.
Paring: Kenbin and Hyukbin
Rating: NC 17
Warning: Cheating
Summary: Jaehwan loves Hongbin and Sanghyuk can’t say no.
Hongbin and Jaehwan have been exclusive for a while now, at least for a few months and for a group that has only been promoting for a year that is a long time. Jaehwan was so enamored with Hongbin, he seemed to be a completely different type of human than the rest of them. He was more than just objectively attractive, he was humble, and every single feature about him was handsome. The way he smiled was handsome, how his smile was slightly crooked and flashed so many teeth and to top it all off those dimples that added such charm. If Jaehwan looked at Hongbin for too long he honestly started to feel light headed, how could someone so obviously attractive look at him in the same light? Jaehwan would laugh with the others and proclaim that he was completely confident in his looks, now and pre-debut, but honestly who could compare with Hongbin? That was setting anyone up for failure.
Jaehwan smiled down at Hongbin as he buried his head into Jaehwan’s stomach, head in his lap. Jaehwan smoothed his fingers through Hongbin’s hair while his other rested on his side, loosing himself in the profile of Hongbin’s pale skin and sharp jaw. After a few moment’s Hongbin’s eyes opened and he looked up at Jaehwan, smiling sweetly and tightening his hold around Jaehwan’s waist. Jaehwan’s heart beat faster, his fingers moving quickly to gently trace under Hongbin’s eye down to the corner of his lip and pressed against that dimple, watching it become more prominent. Hongbin leaned up, tilting his head to fit his lips perfectly against Jaehwan’s, easily stealing Jaehwan’s breath. Jaehwan moved his hand to run through Hongbin’s hair, which was still soft despite the constant bleaching it went through coupled with the pounds of hair products they had to put up with daily.
Hongbin pulled away slowly, their lips making a soft sound when they disconnected and Jaehwan already missed the connection, “What?” Hongbin spoke softly, a small shy smile on his lips.
Jaehwan pulled Hongbin closer, he was never close enough, and rubbed his nose against Hongbin’s, just enjoying the other being so close to him, “You’re beautiful.”
It felt dumb saying it, but the smile he got from Hongbin was well worth it, and how he ducked his head to hide it into Jaehwan’s shoulder was the most rewarding. Jaehwan pulled Hongbin into his lap, leaning back against the couch and running his fingers over Hongbin’s back, listening to him breath. He ran his fingertips over each and every vertebrae, feeling most of them through his skin until he stopped just short of his tail bone, slipping his fingers just barley up Hongbin’s shirt to run them against his lower back. He smiled from the soft hum against his neck and didn’t stop even after Hongbin’s breathing had evened out.
Jaehwan always hated and loved waking Hongbin up. Hongbin looked so peaceful in his sleep, so relaxed while his mind was at ease and Jaehwan didn’t want to rip him away from that sweet bliss. However, those sleepy, unfocused eyes that blinked up at Jaehwan with that adorably confused look made him want to push Hongbin back into bed so he could kiss every single part of him, which he would indulge himself occasionally when they weren’t busy. Unfortunately that wasn’t too often however.
Jaehwan pulled Hongbin closer to him, pressing his chest closer to Hongbin’s back while kissing his neck repeatedly. Hongbin giggled softly, tilting his head just so Jaehwan had enough room while running his thin fingers over the ones wrapped around his waist. Hongbin turned his head to look behind him, flipping to be on his back so he could press his lips against Jaehwan’s. Jaehwan responded quickly, moving to hover above Hongbin and kiss him deeply, running his tongue over his teeth while he felt his sides. Hongbin’s small whimpers drove Jaehwan to press a bit harder, move slightly faster because he always got so impatient when it came to Hongbin. He pulled off their clothing just to reconnect their mouths in a sloppy kiss, staying like that for a few long moments while rubbing the soft skin of Hongbin’s inner thighs. Hongbin broke away first, his face flushed and his hair disheveled, the sight caused Jaehwan’s breathe to catch in his throat.
“Hyung…”
The desperation in Hongbin’s voice caused Jaehwan to moan softly through clenched teeth and he ducked down to nip at Hongbin’s skin while forcing his legs to spread wider for him. Hongbin smiled albeit nervously as he threw his arm over his eyes. Jaehwan grabbed whatever liquid was closest to them, some lotion he didn’t bother to read the name of, and chuckled softly at Hongbin. He gently moved Hongbin’s arm from his face, pressing kisses from his shoulder all the way down to the tip of his ring finger, smiling against it.
“Don’t hide.” He smiled brightly, pressing his face against Hongbin’s hand when he lightly touched Jaehwan’s cheek.
Jaehwan was always so careful with Hongbin, like he was a delicate doll and could break in an instant if he was careless. The press of his fingers inside Hongbin were slow but deliberate as he savored every flutter of Hongbin’s eyelashes or how his lips would part slightly more when he gasped from the way Jaehwan would move his fingers inside of him. Hongbin quickly became too impatient and slowly reached between them to loosely hold Jaehwan’s wrist, not stopping the steady movement of his hand but instead moving with it. Jaehwan swallowed hard and panted into Hongbin’s mouth as he licked across Jaehwan’s open lips. It always surprised Jaehwan with how straight forward Hongbin was during sex, the fingers curled loosely around his wrist stimulating him more than he would care to admit, causing him to push them that much harder into Hongbin just to watch how his eye lashes fluttered. Sometimes Jaehwan wondered if Hongbin was honestly shy or was it a coy game he liked to play with everyone around him. That smile that was just a bit too knowing, a bit too sly which got Jaehwan thinking maybe he didn’t know everything about Hongbin which only seemed to excite him further. Jaehwan bit his bottom lip hard to muffle his groan when he pushed into Hongbin because he whimpered softly every time Jaehwan first pushed into him and Jaehwan needed to hear it clearly. Jaehwan picked up speed quickly until Hongbin had to put one of his hands above him to press against the wall to keep his head from hitting it while his other hand never left Jaehwan whether it was his hair or the back of his neck. Jaehwan knew he was close, he felt as if his stomach was slowly tightening, preparing to burst so he pushed Hongbin’s legs a little farther apart, a little higher as he leaned over him to push into him that much harder until he came with a loud moan that followed by Hongbin’s voice shouting out, signaling his climax along with the tightening around Jaehwan.
Jaehwan stayed like that for probably longer than he should have, still inside of Hongbin, resting over him and kissing his lips softly over and over again until Hongbin giggled and gently pushed Jaehwan off of him only to be pulled back into Jaehwan, his nose nuzzling into Hongbin’s neck. Hongbin gave a breathy chuckle, closing his eyes and enjoying their proximity, easily falling asleep. Jaehwan wasn’t far behind him, tracing small shapes lightly into Hongbin’s hip while looking over his face. Yes, Hongbin was definitely a different type of human.
Recently something has been different, Hongbin acts the same, and he still smiles shyly and has laughs full of cute dimples and teeth, but something seems off. However, it is just normal enough for almost everyone to not notice, everyone but Sanghyuk. At first Sanghyuk doesn’t pay much attention to how, lately, Hongbin is becoming touchier, and he just assumed their relationship was only improving which excited him; he naturally wanted to be close to all of his hyungs. However, as time moved on his closeness seemed to be a bit strange and it was getting harder and harder for Sanghyuk to continue to not take notice of how Hongbin would look at him differently than the others, or how he would hug him or just make any sort of physical contact with him more and more often. It made Sanghyuk feel weird, but more confused than anything else because he acted the same way with Jaehwan and something about that didn’t feel right. Sanghyuk knew about Jaehwan and Hongbin, all of them did, which was why it felt so wrong to feel a spike of arousal every time Hongbin’s hand moved to far up his thigh, how good it felt when Hongbin hugged him more often than usual lately. Sanghyuk hated himself for it. He kept quiet about it, tried his best to laugh at Hongbin and treat him like he would any of the others but it was hard when Hongbin, probably the most attractive man alive, was becoming all touchy feely with you.
Sanghyuk doesn’t think he likes men, however there is something about Hongbin that he can’t deny makes him want to just touch him. He is inhumanly attractive and he has no obvious poor qualities which seemed to not fit the definition of human and if anyone in Vixx was qualified to know that Sanghyuk was sure it would be him. Sanghyuk knew he probably should have talked to Hongbin about this because now he can’t pretend that something weird isn’t happening. He stopped lying to himself when he walked through the living room and only glanced over to see Jaehwan and Hongbin watching television, Honbin’s head in Jaehwan’s lap, but Hongbin was looking at him, and that glint in his eye caused Sanghyuk to feel light headed as he rushed out of the room because he knew Hongbin was doing this on purpose. However, Sanghyuk didn’t try to talk to Hongbin nor did he tell anyone his thoughts because deep down he got some sick amusement out of it and it made him sick to his stomach to think about it.
Sanghyuk blinked sleepily at his reflection in the mirror as he slowly brushed his teeth before going to bed. They had all just returned from their schedules and Sanghyuk was more than ready to go to bed. He leaned over the sink and spat, turning the water on to cup some into his mouth and swish it around. He heard the bathroom door opening then shutting but paid no mind, it wasn’t like they hadn’t all gotten ready for bed before at the same time, as he spat out the water and turned off the faucet. He stood up and looked in the mirror but gasped, jumping slightly at seeing Hongbin behind him, leaning against the wall and looking back at Sanghyuk through the mirror, a large smile on his face. Sanghyuk put a hand to his chest, his heart rate speeding up now from the anxiety of being in a small confined space with Hongbin alone.
Sanghyuk turned around and laughed, a bit nervously, “Hyung, you scared me.”
Hongbin’s smile turned quickly less innocent and Sanghyuk swallowed nervously at the way his eyelashes fluttered a bit and how dark his eyes were as he stepped forward, innocently putting his hand on Sanghyuk’s arm but for some reason, to Sanghyuk, it felt anything but innocent.
“I did? Sorry Hyukie.”
Sanghyuk swallowed hard again, feeling like he needed to leave as soon as possible because something was crackling in the air and it was so, so wrong.
“Ahh…I am done in here so...so it is all yours!” He laughed, trying to not make it nervous, as he went to leave the bathroom but Hongbin grabbed his arm instead.
“Actually, Sanghyuk-ah, I want to ask you something really fast.”
Sanghyuk swallowed and slowly turned to face Hongbin, feeling uncomfortable with how unreadable his generic, but handsome, smile, “Yea hyung?”
Sanghyuk’s eyes widened when Hongbin took a step closer, so obviously invading Sanghyuk’s personal space and causing him to take a step back but that put him right against the door which only caused Hongbin to smile and close the distance between them once again. Sanghyuk glanced nervously to the side, looking at the door handle and urging himself to reach out and just open it so he can escape. However Hongbin leaned closer, their lips mere centimeters apart and Hongbin just looked so fucking good it caused Sanghyuk to freeze. Sanghyuk tore his eyes away from Hongbin, moving his hands to Hongbin’s shoulders so he could push him away because he didn’t know what was happening right now and he knew that this would upset Jaehwan and that was literally the last thing on this planet that Sanghyuk wanted to do because he fucking knew how much Hongbin meant to him.
“Hyung, wait I think-“
He was cut off by Hongbin, “Then don’t think Hyukie.” He giggled softly, pressing closer to Sanghyuk.
Sanghyuk shook his head, eyebrows furrowed which only caused Hongbin to smile more before pressing their lips together and Sanghyuk feels his stomach drop in despair and his heart start to flutter. Sanghyuk really wanted to push Hongbin away, fuck he really was going to but the way Hongbin tilted his head to the side, making their lips fit just perfectly and how his hands ran through his hair caused Sanghyuk to melt and pull Hongbin closer to him. Sanghyuk willingly opened his mouth for Hongbin’s tongue to slide in and the way it slid across his own made Sanghyuk weak in the knees. He gasped when Hongbin slid a hand into his pajama pants and pumped his partially erect member until his was fully hard and aching. Sanghyuk broke away from the kiss, his fingers trembling on Honbin’s shoulders, caught in the battle to either push Hongbin away or pull him closer which left him incapable to do anything but whimper when Hongbin dropped to his knees. Sanghyuk felt panicked and he tried to fall through the door but that was seemingly not going to happen. Hongbin pulled out Sanghyuk’s erection quickly and easily took it all into his mouth. Sanghyuk slapped a hand over his mouth and let out a muffled groan, his other hand clenching into a fist at his side as Hongbin did anything but tease. Sanghyuk timidly glanced down at Hongbin but wished he hadn’t because he felt as if his entire body heaved from his conflicted emotions at the sight of Hongbin’s pretty face so close to him with his pretty lips wrapped around his dick and sucking in the most obscene way. Sanghyuk didn’t last long, he bit into the palm of his hand hard when he came and Hongbin swallowed all of it, licking up what had escaped and causing Sanghyuk to wiggle because the stimulation was way to fucking much. Hongbin quickly got up, smacked his lips a few times then gave Sanghyuk that same handsome smile.
“Sleep well Hyukie!” He ruffled Sanghyuk’s hair before leaving the bathroom, leaving a frozen Sanghyuk behind him.
Sanghyuk slowly slid down the door until his butt hit the floor painfully, tears welling in his eyes because he didn’t know what to do. He felt scared, aroused, and lost all at the same time and it was really starting to hurt. He rose a trembling hand to lock the door so he could crawl to the toilet and dry heave until he finally threw up everything he had eaten for dinner, hot tears running down his face.
He couldn’t look Jaehwan in the eyes after that incident, which was starting to cause some commotion amongst the others and Sanghyuk swore he was alright, he was just not feeling too well. He felt like he was going to throw up again with Jaehwan frowned, putting an arm around him and exclaiming loudly how Sanghyuk needs to get better. Normally Sanghyuk would find it endearing and laugh with him, maybe crack a few jokes, but he glances up and there is Hongbin, with that unreadable smile and he feels like he is going to be sick.
It gets worse after that incident, Hongbin is much touchier with Sanghyuk and Sanghyuk is becoming more and more paranoid that it is beginning to be too obvious to everyone, especially Jaehwan. However, they all seem to be acting different, even Hongbin which Sanghyuk thinks is so unfair because how come he gets to act like nothing is wrong, like he doesn’t corner Sanghyuk and pull him into a kiss in the dressing rooms or he doesn’t swallow his fucking come after he sucks him dry at night, and then laugh and cuddle with Jaehwan like nothing happened. Sanghyuk wants to bash his head in and he has contemplated doing it more and more often as time goes by because he can’t sleep, he can’t eat, and hell he can barely function properly.
Sanghyuk swallows hard when Hakyeon sits him down in an empty room, a worried expression on his face.
“Hyukie-gun, what is wrong?”
Sanghyuk swallows hard once more, shaking his head, “Nothing is wrong hyung, I just feel off lately is all.” He looked down, squeezing his eyes shut and praying over and over again that Hakyeon accepts his excuse.
“Hyuk, something has to be wrong, you look really sick, do you think you need to see a doctor?” Hakyeon reached out a comforting hand to gently rub his back and Sanghyuk shakes his head.
“No hyung…I-I think all I need is some rest, I have been a bit stressed lately.” Sanghyuk even rose his head to give a weak smile.
He felt terrible for lying to Hakyeon, who accepted his excuse with a hug and told him he would always be there for him, which only caused Sanghyuk to feel even sicker. Sanghyuk waited for a few minutes until Hakyeon left to stand up on wobbly legs and walk out of the room to maybe go get something to eat but something caught his eye. He looked over at the couch to see Taekwoon looking at him and he froze, eyes going wide because even though Taekwoon didn’t say anything, Sanghyuk knew what he was trying to get across. Bile quickly rose in Sanghyuk’s throat, he knows, and he quickly turned away to speed walk into the bathroom and lock the door, leaning over the toilet but all he could do was dry heave because he hasn’t eaten in the past few days.
Sanghyuk was beginning to feel like he should just never use the bathroom again, or maybe drag Hakyeon or Wonshik in with him, as Hongbin presses him into the wall with a kiss that is all tongue and teeth. Hongbin pulls away and kisses Sanghyuk’s jaw, a hand pressing into the obvious bulge in Sanghyuk’s pants causing him to pant and curse under his breath.
Hongbin kisses Sanghyuk’s jaw over to his ear to lick the shell and whisper hotly, “Fuck me Hyuk-ah.” While punctuation his words, Hongbin squeezed over Sanghyuk’s clothed erection, causing him to choke on air.
Sanghyuk opened his lips that were trebling, “H-hyung…” His voice was weak, broken and he wished Hongbin would hear how much fucking pain he was in but Hongbin only smiled and continued to whisper into his ear.
“I touched myself thinking of you Hyuk-ah, I need you to fuck me.”
Sanghyuk felt as if some of his brain was leaking out of his skull but that couldn’t be right. He felt himself nod and everything seemed to move too fast and to slow at the same exact time. It felt like it wasn’t his body that pressed Hongbin into the wall as he shoved three fingers into him, knuckle deep while Hongbin quietly whimpered for more, or when he pushed his erection inside that incredibly tight body and he had to bite Hongbin’s shoulder to keep from moaning out too loud. His eyebrows furrowed and buried his head into Hongbin’s shoulder, biting his lip as tears welled up in his eyes from the strong mixed emotions he felt. His hips started up quickly though, setting a fast pace that pushed him deep inside of Hongbin until he was coming, biting his lip so hard that he tasted the coppery taste of blood in his mouth. He stayed there breathing deeply, blissful in his post orgasm state because nothing was really important at the moment. He moved back a bit and blinked, Hongbin turning around with a pleased smile as he leaned forward to kiss Sanghyuk who quickly realized what had happened and had to shove Hongbin away because he was certain he was going to puke up something this time.
Sanghyuk didn’t sleep for even a minute that night, his mind was too busy and the guilt he felt weighed much too heavy in his stomach. He laid on his back, staring up into the darkness and doing his best to hold back tears every now and then because he just got done crying for what felt like days and, frankly, he didn’t want to cry anymore. It only further exhausted him, which would be nice if he could actually fall asleep. Sanghyuk licked his lips, they were dry, his whole mouth felt dry and he decided maybe a glass of water would help. He slowly dragged himself out of bed and shuffled out of the room, glancing at the time to see the bright numbers tell him it was three in the morning. Sanghyuk went into the kitchen and grabbed a bottle of water downing half of it when a voice behind him caused him to nearly jump out of his skin.
“You should go sleep. You are worrying everyone.”
Sanghyuk quickly turned around and his stomach dropped when he saw Taekwoon open the fridge to get water also. Sanghyuk shuffled back and bowed, apologizing softly and glancing up to Taekwoon but his sharp look made Sanghyuk recoil a bit.
Taekwoon looked away drinking again before putting his water bottle back. “Don’t apologize to me.” He moved around Sanghyuk and left him alone in the kitchen.
Sanghyuk covered his face with one hand, tears flowing freely now down his face. His shoulders shook a bit as his fingers gave out and the water fell to the floor spilling all over it and wetting Sanghyuk’s pants. He didn’t care, however, as he slowly slid to the floor, bringing his other hand up to also cover his face as his shoulders shook. He curled his knees closer to his body that shook with his sobs that he tried so desperately to keep quite. He didn’t even notice how wet he was getting from the cold water that surrounded him.
Sanghyuk tried so hard to be normal, to seem ok but it wasn’t working especially when this weird ripple effect suddenly happened around him and he became increasingly paranoid. He smiled weakly at the interview they were at, feeling happy that there was distance between him and Hongbin. He actually started to feel much better as the interview went on, he looked around but then he made eye contact with Jaehwan and he felt as if the entire building was collapsing around him. He looked so conflicted, so unlike himself and Sanghyuk knew exactly why which caused a stabbing pain in his chest. He looked suspicious, he looked like he knew something was happening but he didn’t wasn’t to admit that he was suspicious because he wasn’t sure. Sanghyuk glanced next to Jaehwan but he came into eye contact with Taekwoon, who sat right beside Jaehwan and his stomach flipped. Taekwoon closed his eyes and looked away, his face emotionless and it hurt so badly. Sanghyuk had to fake cough because he felt like he was going to get sick again. His hands trembled and he quickly folded them in his lap, willing them to stop but they wouldn’t. He slowly looked back up, Jaehwan wasn’t looking at him but instead at the MC but Sanghyuk knew that his smile wasn’t real, it didn’t reach his eyes which instead looked so empty and it was absolutely terrifying to see Jaehwan out of all of them looking soulless and broken. Sanghyuk turned to see Hongbin, looking better than ever, a bright smile on his lips as he turned to meet Sanghyuk’s eyes and his smile morphed into something that hurt Sanghyuk to the very core.
Sanghyuk felt like, for the first time in his life, that he wanted to die.