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So, it's been some months since I've updated. Dunno...just haven't felt like updating? I mean, it's kinda difficult to feel like doing it after all the bullshit that hit LJ, but the dust has settled and things changed...
Honestly, I don't even know where to begin. So, I'll begin with the biggest and oldest bit of news.
Mid-January, my parents went down to Georgia to see my Aunt Patty. Things had slowly been deteriorating for her prior to this time, but it's never been something I was able to bring myself to talk about. Cancer scares the fuck out of me and I just couldn't process hearing every single update about the things going on. But by that point, she was in so much pain and they...pretty much were at the point of keeping her comfortable. We thought that once Pop and Mom got down there, she'd be able to let go.
My aunt though... Ah man, lord, I love that woman. She held on for three more weeks after out of sheer stubbornness.
I don't know...I thought finally writing this down, I'd cry more but... I think I got most of my tears so long ago and when my parents first announced they were going down. Shit got real. It was final. Dunno, maybe there will be more sometime down the line. Every now and then, I'll feel like it. Like...some kind of emotion hits me for a moment and then will just leave a moment later. I'm sure I'll cry more at the memorial we're finally holding this Saturday. I think it's just family.
It's been easier to focus on things now that I'm not dreading an update email from CarePages. There were just stretches of days when I just couldn't do anything but surf around the internet, or read, or play Halo Reach just so I was doing something instead of staying in my head. I still love to do all of those things, but it's easier now. My aunt's illness was something that was praying on my mind since August 2010. I wanted so much for the trials to work and for things to go into remission, and for a short while, some things had. But...it didn't turn out for the best in the end.
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On to other things. I've been pouring energies into fixing up things at luministi. I wound up moving the game over to Dreamwidth (found here:
luministi ), and so far, the move was pretty harmless! Sure, it was a pain in the ass to update every single page so it had dreamwidth links and not ones on LJ, but those pages needed to be updated. And I've been able to go forward with off-season things too, so it's been pretty good! Our fourth wall event is one step in preparation of the new season. (And if you haven't hopped on over there, please check it out and join us for some 4th-walling fun!)
Next...comes opening up apps and reserves on April 14th. With most of the RP world moved over to Dreamwidth, I need to re-find all of the different advertising comms and stuff. I love my group so damn much, but...I'm greedy. I'd love for more people to get in and help drive things for the last season of the game. Man...I honestly cannot wait to share the things that have been in my head since the conception of this game. All the finely tuned details and everything. I hope it'll all make sense in the end and people will enjoy the ending.
The game opens officially on May 19th just before noon, my time. It'll run for the four months yet again, but I'm working in extra time into the schedule in case we need it for any particular plot or to wrap everything up. And...I think we definitely will need it.
I don't know what the future will hold as far as me starting another game, or what kind. I might just take a long break and recharge those energies. We'll see how things are come October~
For now, I'll try to update periodically. Nothing too much else going on, you know? I have been spending more time hanging around the Rooster Teeth community site. It's a different animal than I'm used to, but I still enjoy it! (My profile is here if you have one and want to poke me on there~) I'm trying to become more active on there since I'm going to RTX in July! (I'll just say right now that I have awesome friends. I'll repay them in as many ways as I can.) I still think it's nuts going to Texas in July and man, I'm hoping for cooler temperatures than they've gotten in the past, but it also means spending two weeks down south with friends and I cannot wait omg. It will be so awesome. The summer times in past couple years have been the best times of the year for me, and I'm so looking forward to continuing that streak. (Plus the chance to meet the RvB guys? YES PLEASE!)
So, that's all I've got for now~ I also have journal on Dreamwidth (
vampydirector ), but I'm pretty much gonna crosspost things since I still have people on LJ and all that fun stuff.
I hope everyone is doing well! ♥
Honestly, I don't even know where to begin. So, I'll begin with the biggest and oldest bit of news.
Mid-January, my parents went down to Georgia to see my Aunt Patty. Things had slowly been deteriorating for her prior to this time, but it's never been something I was able to bring myself to talk about. Cancer scares the fuck out of me and I just couldn't process hearing every single update about the things going on. But by that point, she was in so much pain and they...pretty much were at the point of keeping her comfortable. We thought that once Pop and Mom got down there, she'd be able to let go.
My aunt though... Ah man, lord, I love that woman. She held on for three more weeks after out of sheer stubbornness.
I don't know...I thought finally writing this down, I'd cry more but... I think I got most of my tears so long ago and when my parents first announced they were going down. Shit got real. It was final. Dunno, maybe there will be more sometime down the line. Every now and then, I'll feel like it. Like...some kind of emotion hits me for a moment and then will just leave a moment later. I'm sure I'll cry more at the memorial we're finally holding this Saturday. I think it's just family.
It's been easier to focus on things now that I'm not dreading an update email from CarePages. There were just stretches of days when I just couldn't do anything but surf around the internet, or read, or play Halo Reach just so I was doing something instead of staying in my head. I still love to do all of those things, but it's easier now. My aunt's illness was something that was praying on my mind since August 2010. I wanted so much for the trials to work and for things to go into remission, and for a short while, some things had. But...it didn't turn out for the best in the end.
--------------------
On to other things. I've been pouring energies into fixing up things at luministi. I wound up moving the game over to Dreamwidth (found here:
luministi ), and so far, the move was pretty harmless! Sure, it was a pain in the ass to update every single page so it had dreamwidth links and not ones on LJ, but those pages needed to be updated. And I've been able to go forward with off-season things too, so it's been pretty good! Our fourth wall event is one step in preparation of the new season. (And if you haven't hopped on over there, please check it out and join us for some 4th-walling fun!)
Next...comes opening up apps and reserves on April 14th. With most of the RP world moved over to Dreamwidth, I need to re-find all of the different advertising comms and stuff. I love my group so damn much, but...I'm greedy. I'd love for more people to get in and help drive things for the last season of the game. Man...I honestly cannot wait to share the things that have been in my head since the conception of this game. All the finely tuned details and everything. I hope it'll all make sense in the end and people will enjoy the ending.
The game opens officially on May 19th just before noon, my time. It'll run for the four months yet again, but I'm working in extra time into the schedule in case we need it for any particular plot or to wrap everything up. And...I think we definitely will need it.
I don't know what the future will hold as far as me starting another game, or what kind. I might just take a long break and recharge those energies. We'll see how things are come October~
For now, I'll try to update periodically. Nothing too much else going on, you know? I have been spending more time hanging around the Rooster Teeth community site. It's a different animal than I'm used to, but I still enjoy it! (My profile is here if you have one and want to poke me on there~) I'm trying to become more active on there since I'm going to RTX in July! (I'll just say right now that I have awesome friends. I'll repay them in as many ways as I can.) I still think it's nuts going to Texas in July and man, I'm hoping for cooler temperatures than they've gotten in the past, but it also means spending two weeks down south with friends and I cannot wait omg. It will be so awesome. The summer times in past couple years have been the best times of the year for me, and I'm so looking forward to continuing that streak. (Plus the chance to meet the RvB guys? YES PLEASE!)
So, that's all I've got for now~ I also have journal on Dreamwidth (
vampydirector ), but I'm pretty much gonna crosspost things since I still have people on LJ and all that fun stuff.
I hope everyone is doing well! ♥