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i dont feel like writing. i'm fucking depressedand sick of my life.
easter was spent fighting w rob and spending it withhis relatives while he waited outside in his car for hours because he was mad at his mother and refused to go inside.
this is what i had to wait to go to the hospital to visit dot for.
his grandparents didn't even KNOW i was coming and there was barely room at the table for me.
i made dot an awsome bunny shaped cake for easter but she didn't eat any of it b/c she's sick.
nothing else @ all.
my mom helped me chemically straighten my hair last night w/ this at hom ekit. i shoulda just waited.
they might let me use their tannin bed tonight though.
rob spends all day every day out in suffolk dirt bike riding. then he comes home nad btiches at mefor every little thing.
sunday we went to the movies to see scary movie 4 w/ demi and her Rob. It was OK.
Visited Dot again in the hospital today.
Really wanted to get my eyebrows done but everyplace is now closed.
I want my fucking car.
I want a boyfriend who acts like a fucking boyfriend.
I hate my life I hate being so fucking depressed everything pisses me off b/c everything Rob does/says to me stays with me.
Last night we tried having sex but I started crying and made him stop b/c I honestly felt like I was having sex w/ a stranger. He even smelled difft. We don't talk at all anymore.
Today's our 14 month anniversary.
Woo fucking hoo.
I want to cry and scream and break something. I have so much pent up anger and frustration. I'm going to snap soon enough.
easter was spent fighting w rob and spending it withhis relatives while he waited outside in his car for hours because he was mad at his mother and refused to go inside.
this is what i had to wait to go to the hospital to visit dot for.
his grandparents didn't even KNOW i was coming and there was barely room at the table for me.
i made dot an awsome bunny shaped cake for easter but she didn't eat any of it b/c she's sick.
nothing else @ all.
my mom helped me chemically straighten my hair last night w/ this at hom ekit. i shoulda just waited.
they might let me use their tannin bed tonight though.
rob spends all day every day out in suffolk dirt bike riding. then he comes home nad btiches at mefor every little thing.
sunday we went to the movies to see scary movie 4 w/ demi and her Rob. It was OK.
Visited Dot again in the hospital today.
Really wanted to get my eyebrows done but everyplace is now closed.
I want my fucking car.
I want a boyfriend who acts like a fucking boyfriend.
I hate my life I hate being so fucking depressed everything pisses me off b/c everything Rob does/says to me stays with me.
Last night we tried having sex but I started crying and made him stop b/c I honestly felt like I was having sex w/ a stranger. He even smelled difft. We don't talk at all anymore.
Today's our 14 month anniversary.
Woo fucking hoo.
I want to cry and scream and break something. I have so much pent up anger and frustration. I'm going to snap soon enough.