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Ok I serioulsy dont know what to do. I am really about to cry. I think that I like serioulsy screwed up like REALLY bad. Ok I have been friends with this guy Josh for a really long time and he always told me he loved me but I thought he meant it like how I tell Ashley I love her and I was wrong. Ash told me he said that he was like really in love with me and I asked him if he just loved me as a friend or if he was IN love with me and he said he was REALLY IN love with me. I dont know what to do I mean yea I love him but im not IN love with him. I have a really hard time with loving people and having people love me b/c I have been in love once already and I was hurt really bad and I dont want that to happen again and I dont want to hurt anyone else. I feel about as small as an ant right now. Well shit idk how else to say this shit. Idk im just gonna go.