fuck
most people know that i promised this 1 girl that i was gonna get back wit her in febuary when she turned 18 but i realized a few things recently. 1. she has completly changed from the person i knew. 2. she is jus becoming more and more distent from the things that matter in her life, and she knows but doesnt care. so i gave up on her and decided to give love 1 more chance. i did spells to meet someone that would completly change something inside of me to were i knew the real me. and as far as i know she actualy loves me, yes very surprising that this sorry worthless piece of shit person could actually find a decent girl that is in my eyes perfect, but it happened. but wat is shitty is that shes not allowed to love me. which really and honestly hurts. but i can bottle it all up inside and just be patient and wait for the right time. wats funny is i know exactly when the right time is but im not gonna tell ne 1 cus that would mess the all mighty and powerful mother and fatehers plan up. so im gonna keep it a secret and jus be patient and act like nothing is wrong and never was. just be a friend and nothing more. so i gave it 1 last chance and its not time so i can wait cus its well worth the wait. be patient and die happy or force it and die alone. thats my choice. so until that time comes FUCK LOVE, FUCK LIFE, AND FUCK EVERYTHING THAT I STOOD FOR. now i do wat the all mighty mother and father tell me to do. if they dont tell me its ok then its not worth my time.