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The past couple days have been ok, a bit heart-wrenching at worst, drunk at best. I spent a lot of time with sam, but something pretty big happened and he's all miffed at me now. I chilled with kym the whole weekend, had lots of fun, we stayed at a hotel for tara's party which was pretty kool. Got pretty wasted, and kym's hair smells like rotten milk still. I feel kinda lonely, just by nature, I guess cuz I'm single. Mind you sometimes sam provides the same companionship he use to, but then he remembers why we broke up and gets mad at me and hangs up on me. He doesn't understand how much I love him. He thinks he loves me and I'm just some heartless bitch, but it's killing me inside, I miss him so much, and I always loved him more than life. I just kinda wanna be held again, if anyone understands what I mean, it's like a wierd need for that comfort and companionship that can't come from anyone else, and without it you feel kinda empty.