why do i bother?
i'm sick of this shit. and here i am about to b 18 and i am hiding stuff and lieing to my family... well atlest my mom. So i came clean. i told my mom about the therpy. now she isn't mad, at me and she is glad actualy that angie and will cared but here was her response... is your therpist christian? cause she can't help u unless she is. then she lectured me on how i am a drama queen and its good to hav someone to talk to but my depression is just pms. i realy realy hate my mom.
i'm getting realy pissed off w/ people. ok i get it u all do not aprove of anti depressents. but i am sry if meds did not help u and your fine now (some people i know who had a month of depression) u did not have clinical depression. ok u all do not aprove but i am not asking my friends to take meds i am asking support in finding whats best for me to make me better. and i am also pissed cause i have severly depressed friends that r mad at me cause i am trying to cure my problem instead f just living w/ it. and i am sick of my friends that don't have constant depression judgeing me telling me to grow up every one is sad and that i need to grow up. funny the only people that r supportive of me getting help is my brother greg and my bf... everyone else doesn't care, says its bs, or makes me out to b a drama queen when it comes to me trying to kill myself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
note: friends may refer to a couple of people not all i am being general cause i don't like listing names.
i am sick... yes i know again... and i have shit to do. but i would like to give my mom the i choose religion over my daugther award, brought by crazy bitch productions
oh and the best part about work.. there is this girl sarr. right well she got a section that was mainly tables. wel customers aparently don't like tables so she didn't get seated alot instead of saying shit to me she goes to my manager infront of me turns her back to me and is oh your hostess isn't doing her job. and walks away. BITCH!!!! my manger says to ignore her and let her talk i was doing fine. well i go out w/ becy and andre for a cig brake and zia the cashier sits sarr. sarr comes out and tells andre to go take her table! why he asks cause for an hr she has been talk'n shit about how she wants a table... she goes oh i have given up on making money.. so andre takes it. then i go in (note i was hostess last night)and i sit her about 3 to 5 tables she waits on one the rest she gives to other peole saying she was tired and doesn't want them. well at the end of the night she walks up to me and my manger again not talking to me but she said it delibritaly so i could here i didn't make any money cause your hostess and cashier (zia) can't do thier jobs!!!!!!!!!! my mangers like hold up i saw u w/ 5 tables. and sarr goes oh well g.g. (another waitress) hasn't had a lot eigther so i gave it to her it was her turn to make money. so my manager told her it wasn't me and zia fault and if she wants to b mad go b mad at herself caue oh heres another thing. cause custemers refused to sit in her section people were like oh take my table and there was a booth right next to her section my msanger told her to take and shes like no its not in my section!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! then she starts complaining about not having tables.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i sware she pulls that shit w/ me again i will fucking cus her out.
i'm getting realy pissed off w/ people. ok i get it u all do not aprove of anti depressents. but i am sry if meds did not help u and your fine now (some people i know who had a month of depression) u did not have clinical depression. ok u all do not aprove but i am not asking my friends to take meds i am asking support in finding whats best for me to make me better. and i am also pissed cause i have severly depressed friends that r mad at me cause i am trying to cure my problem instead f just living w/ it. and i am sick of my friends that don't have constant depression judgeing me telling me to grow up every one is sad and that i need to grow up. funny the only people that r supportive of me getting help is my brother greg and my bf... everyone else doesn't care, says its bs, or makes me out to b a drama queen when it comes to me trying to kill myself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
note: friends may refer to a couple of people not all i am being general cause i don't like listing names.
i am sick... yes i know again... and i have shit to do. but i would like to give my mom the i choose religion over my daugther award, brought by crazy bitch productions
oh and the best part about work.. there is this girl sarr. right well she got a section that was mainly tables. wel customers aparently don't like tables so she didn't get seated alot instead of saying shit to me she goes to my manager infront of me turns her back to me and is oh your hostess isn't doing her job. and walks away. BITCH!!!! my manger says to ignore her and let her talk i was doing fine. well i go out w/ becy and andre for a cig brake and zia the cashier sits sarr. sarr comes out and tells andre to go take her table! why he asks cause for an hr she has been talk'n shit about how she wants a table... she goes oh i have given up on making money.. so andre takes it. then i go in (note i was hostess last night)and i sit her about 3 to 5 tables she waits on one the rest she gives to other peole saying she was tired and doesn't want them. well at the end of the night she walks up to me and my manger again not talking to me but she said it delibritaly so i could here i didn't make any money cause your hostess and cashier (zia) can't do thier jobs!!!!!!!!!! my mangers like hold up i saw u w/ 5 tables. and sarr goes oh well g.g. (another waitress) hasn't had a lot eigther so i gave it to her it was her turn to make money. so my manager told her it wasn't me and zia fault and if she wants to b mad go b mad at herself caue oh heres another thing. cause custemers refused to sit in her section people were like oh take my table and there was a booth right next to her section my msanger told her to take and shes like no its not in my section!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! then she starts complaining about not having tables.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i sware she pulls that shit w/ me again i will fucking cus her out.