I've come to a realization, several actually.
So for some reason, I woke up at like 7 am this morning and couldn't fall back asleep, so I decided to just lay on my couch and think for about an hour.During this time I came to several realizations.
Realization #1: I'm a loser and I know it.
Reason: At this point, I'm going nowhere in life. I dont't hve a job, because my nice guy attitude always seems to get me in trouble. I don't have any real "talents" outside of playing video games, which again gets me nowehre in life.
Realization #2: I'm pathetic.
Reason: This sort of ties in with the above. No matter what I try, I always suck at things that arent games. Having no job shows this even more. Like last night people were giving me change form their pockets so I can get a goddamn soda at the diner.
Realization #3: I miss the girls, alot.
Reason: Like half of my hour was spent thinking about Hillary and Julie. They have both been like sisters to me, they maynot agree with this, but this is one of my few strong beliefs. I dunno, I jsut feel more comfortable when I'm around them.The only people I care about more than them is well... nobody. I would do anything for them. My other friends have my back and I have theirs, but I just feel closer to Hillary and Julie, and ulitmately if it came down to it, which I hope it doesnt, Id choose them.
I'm pretty sure nobody reads this anymore, or they do and don't acknowledge it, but whatever. I use this journal as a place to put my feelings on paper, and to vent. Ultimately, tohugh I am curious to know people's reactions to this.
Anyway, I think im gonig to TRY to get some more sleep or something, I feel nauseous and crappy right now, due to only sleeping for 4 hours or so so far.
Realization #1: I'm a loser and I know it.
Reason: At this point, I'm going nowhere in life. I dont't hve a job, because my nice guy attitude always seems to get me in trouble. I don't have any real "talents" outside of playing video games, which again gets me nowehre in life.
Realization #2: I'm pathetic.
Reason: This sort of ties in with the above. No matter what I try, I always suck at things that arent games. Having no job shows this even more. Like last night people were giving me change form their pockets so I can get a goddamn soda at the diner.
Realization #3: I miss the girls, alot.
Reason: Like half of my hour was spent thinking about Hillary and Julie. They have both been like sisters to me, they maynot agree with this, but this is one of my few strong beliefs. I dunno, I jsut feel more comfortable when I'm around them.The only people I care about more than them is well... nobody. I would do anything for them. My other friends have my back and I have theirs, but I just feel closer to Hillary and Julie, and ulitmately if it came down to it, which I hope it doesnt, Id choose them.
I'm pretty sure nobody reads this anymore, or they do and don't acknowledge it, but whatever. I use this journal as a place to put my feelings on paper, and to vent. Ultimately, tohugh I am curious to know people's reactions to this.
Anyway, I think im gonig to TRY to get some more sleep or something, I feel nauseous and crappy right now, due to only sleeping for 4 hours or so so far.