Is it finally the right time?
Well..for the first time in my life, I think im truly fallnig for someone...none of this "ill give you 20 bucks for a hug" bullshit, or my infamous armageddon lines ala sun tavern. Whenever I talk to her on the phone or online or hang out with her, my heart decides to race. For a while, we didnt talk and I felt lonely, crushed..but then a few weeks ago she decided to call me to see how I was, and all of a sudden my spirits lept again. I just got through a very lengthy conversation with her, and I think something just clicked in my conscious and my heart. The only problem, I'm deathly afraid to tell her that I think I am fallnig for her, mostly for the fear of rejection from someone I truly have romantic feelings for. For the first time in my life I truly dont know what to do, especially since I'm financially unable to support her evne though shes doing okay by herself. It is truly brainwracking.