so very very tired
it's been a little over a month since this stupid breakup. thats all it is. sheer stupidity. i've seen him four times since we've broken up. the longest ive gone without talking to him is three days. but those are the facts. the feelings are what i need to get out, but i doon't even know how to. i've kept them bottled up that i dont know how to say what needs to be said. but i guess i can try
when we talk, he tells me that he misses me that this is really hard for him to and how hes also scared of me moving on. it breaks my heart, because i ahte that we're both feeling shitty. it proves to me what a goddamn tradgedy this really is since we're both still so in love with the other. like when we see each other the smiles just light up on our faces and its like the weight f the world as been lifted from both our shoulders and we are finally free and happy. we had a day for sex, i wont lie. it was amazing yet so bittersweet becasue it was the lst time it will happen. or at least thats what he says. i dont believe him becasue we cant keep our hands off each other. when weve hung out we're all grabbing and holding and touching and finally we cant stay apart anymore and we kiss. soft and tender, just like it used to be. and once again we're hapy. but this isnt right and we both know it. these past few hangouts minus the day we had sex, have been like little dates where we flirt and are cute and look like a newly formed couple. no bueno because we arent. last time we were even holding hands until we were both like um.. yea no this isnt right
god this is killing me because WE'RE STILL IN LOVE
last night he said, "i can barely go 30 seconds without wanting to hold you or kiss you or just have you close to me"
i see this breakup as stupid if this is the way its going. hes going away for two months to work at a camp. maybe ill see him when he comes back and we'll see how things are.. who knows what could happen.
klajdlfkgjaldkfg ugh
when we talk, he tells me that he misses me that this is really hard for him to and how hes also scared of me moving on. it breaks my heart, because i ahte that we're both feeling shitty. it proves to me what a goddamn tradgedy this really is since we're both still so in love with the other. like when we see each other the smiles just light up on our faces and its like the weight f the world as been lifted from both our shoulders and we are finally free and happy. we had a day for sex, i wont lie. it was amazing yet so bittersweet becasue it was the lst time it will happen. or at least thats what he says. i dont believe him becasue we cant keep our hands off each other. when weve hung out we're all grabbing and holding and touching and finally we cant stay apart anymore and we kiss. soft and tender, just like it used to be. and once again we're hapy. but this isnt right and we both know it. these past few hangouts minus the day we had sex, have been like little dates where we flirt and are cute and look like a newly formed couple. no bueno because we arent. last time we were even holding hands until we were both like um.. yea no this isnt right
god this is killing me because WE'RE STILL IN LOVE
last night he said, "i can barely go 30 seconds without wanting to hold you or kiss you or just have you close to me"
i see this breakup as stupid if this is the way its going. hes going away for two months to work at a camp. maybe ill see him when he comes back and we'll see how things are.. who knows what could happen.
klajdlfkgjaldkfg ugh