Why do I update anymore?
Seriously, why do i even bother to update? No one really reads this. And people who actually want to talk to me do so everyday....Which can be seen by the lack of comments on this thing. I dont really have friends to write to on this anymore anyway. :( Wyll and a couple others are about it. Honestly, Im not really that friendly of a person anymore anyway. Really, if you knew me in High school, im not much like I used to be. I mean i dont even get into trouble anymore........which is down right weird........................okay more than weird........................................................and i may have these strange urges to cause havoc at my catholic college.....its too damn serene.....nothing happens.....ever........no one fights....no cops break anything up.....no one stirs up trouble just to do so......ppl dont even kiss in public.....no one really says cuss words either..........and.......its starting to get to me......ask wyll....i really dont cuss that much anymore...you have to get me pretty upset.....wow.....Ive turned into a full blown geek.............................................................i havent even been to a party in who knows how long.................................I havent even gotten into a real fight...Well with meghan but that doesnt count...........man....ive become such a geek. The sad part is...Im really okay with it. (besides being at this damn school where nothing ever happens!) I mean I just like where my life is heading. I think I have finally made it back to the path where Im supposed to be. I met Wyll. I fell in love with Wyll. I grew up a lot. Im moving out. Were getting married. I think a few years back the thought of growing up enough to do all this would have scared me but now. Im ready. Ive been waiting all my life for this feeling, to know that what I am doing is right. Im supposed to move out and get married to Wyll. Its our destiny.
I think I show Wyll a side many people dont see from me. Im more playful and nice. And Ill do whatever it takes to make him happy. I love every minute with him. There is nothing i want to change about him. I think hes perfect in everyway. I love him so much.
Well its about twenty five days til I move now. Im really excited. I doubt many people even care that I move. People I once considered friends have either shown their real self or i just have discovered how childish and immature they really are. Id rather not be around anyone that has the old lifestyle I did. Or does anything that I consider shouldnt be in my life. Sorry....but going to a party just to find someone to sleep with....well.....thats not someone i want to be my friend...and i have a special word for you that I wont say(see what i mean about the cussing?) I dun want any drugs around me anymore either. Sorry, if ive dropped you from being my friend and your doing drugs but I just cant be around that anymore. And lastly, this person may be the one im not sorry for at all. But I cant stand you anymore. I hate that you slept around. I hate that you copycat me. I hate that you do drugs now after all the struggle you saw with me getting off them. I hate that you got mad at me because I wanted to spend time with Wyll. Im not sorry tho. Im not sorry at all. I dont care if we were friends since the third grade. Maybe you should grow up a lil. I dont have time for games. I dont have time for you to be angry with me over stupid things. Go ruin your life all on your own Ill have nothing to do with it. lastly, there is one of you who prolly doesnt read this anymore, but i feel like venting. Shut up and quit whining Dawn. I cant stand it. Its always poor poor pitiful me. You have no empathy for anyone. And you arent allowed to be wrong. And poor Chris, you treat him like dirt. And lastly, damn it, you didnt get me and Wyll together. Actually you told him not to talk to me. My guess is that you were jealous. But all this is besides the point. This is just my entry about how much Ive changed and how much I want to keep it all this way. I love Wyll. I will spend my life with him. AND i dont give a damn about it if you dont think I should. Go live your own life not mine.
sigh* sorry I had to vent. Ive been keeping some of that bottled up for a long time now.
I think I show Wyll a side many people dont see from me. Im more playful and nice. And Ill do whatever it takes to make him happy. I love every minute with him. There is nothing i want to change about him. I think hes perfect in everyway. I love him so much.
Well its about twenty five days til I move now. Im really excited. I doubt many people even care that I move. People I once considered friends have either shown their real self or i just have discovered how childish and immature they really are. Id rather not be around anyone that has the old lifestyle I did. Or does anything that I consider shouldnt be in my life. Sorry....but going to a party just to find someone to sleep with....well.....thats not someone i want to be my friend...and i have a special word for you that I wont say(see what i mean about the cussing?) I dun want any drugs around me anymore either. Sorry, if ive dropped you from being my friend and your doing drugs but I just cant be around that anymore. And lastly, this person may be the one im not sorry for at all. But I cant stand you anymore. I hate that you slept around. I hate that you copycat me. I hate that you do drugs now after all the struggle you saw with me getting off them. I hate that you got mad at me because I wanted to spend time with Wyll. Im not sorry tho. Im not sorry at all. I dont care if we were friends since the third grade. Maybe you should grow up a lil. I dont have time for games. I dont have time for you to be angry with me over stupid things. Go ruin your life all on your own Ill have nothing to do with it. lastly, there is one of you who prolly doesnt read this anymore, but i feel like venting. Shut up and quit whining Dawn. I cant stand it. Its always poor poor pitiful me. You have no empathy for anyone. And you arent allowed to be wrong. And poor Chris, you treat him like dirt. And lastly, damn it, you didnt get me and Wyll together. Actually you told him not to talk to me. My guess is that you were jealous. But all this is besides the point. This is just my entry about how much Ive changed and how much I want to keep it all this way. I love Wyll. I will spend my life with him. AND i dont give a damn about it if you dont think I should. Go live your own life not mine.
sigh* sorry I had to vent. Ive been keeping some of that bottled up for a long time now.