beautiful disaster
Today I felt really lonely,
i'm not sure what brought it on,
but I just felt like I couldn't live one more second,
I don't know why i get up in the mornings
I'm just kinda.....BLAH
I know I need to really get on the ball about getting a job, because I just feel
so useless right now...
maybe its because I miss Kyle so much,
or that I lost someone who I thought was my friend
That i've hurt Kyle's family,
that my own doesn't know what to do with me.
I'm stressed out because we're going to have to move, and I am gonna try to get my CNA
so that i can make money, and hopefully make enough to help kyle with the bills,
because if I do that, it might be more proof that I'm getting better and can help him.
I can't believe I'm right back where I started from, trying to get my CNA, living with my mom,
I'm just a leech, I hate who I've become.
I have no personality, and just suck everything from everyone.
**sigh**
I'm tired, maybe i'll read a little and try to relax....
much love everyone
i'm not sure what brought it on,
but I just felt like I couldn't live one more second,
I don't know why i get up in the mornings
I'm just kinda.....BLAH
I know I need to really get on the ball about getting a job, because I just feel
so useless right now...
maybe its because I miss Kyle so much,
or that I lost someone who I thought was my friend
That i've hurt Kyle's family,
that my own doesn't know what to do with me.
I'm stressed out because we're going to have to move, and I am gonna try to get my CNA
so that i can make money, and hopefully make enough to help kyle with the bills,
because if I do that, it might be more proof that I'm getting better and can help him.
I can't believe I'm right back where I started from, trying to get my CNA, living with my mom,
I'm just a leech, I hate who I've become.
I have no personality, and just suck everything from everyone.
**sigh**
I'm tired, maybe i'll read a little and try to relax....
much love everyone