nicht an morgen denken!
Hello Dears,
sometimes I just have days where I just wanna sit there and do nothing but surf the net and listen to music. preferably german music... why? I don't know, I just find in that language extremely relaxing.. like 'rosenstolz' for example, I could listen to them forever...
maybe because I have such good memories connecting me to germany, but it's just such, such a pretty language in my opinion.
anyway, why am I stressed?
well, true.. Japantag is FINALLY behind me.. and so I finally managed to get more then 5 hours of sleep in the last few days.. but aside from that, I'm still insanely busy.
firstly, because I have 2 presenations this week, and also because not only dd my boss call be this morning to ask if I could work today ,(which I had to refuse.. but obviousely, I have school) but they called me again this afternoon asking if instead of just tommorowevening, I could work the entire day... BUT I HAVE SCHOOL!
WHICH PART OF PARTTIMER DON'T THEY GET?!!!
besides, I already worked more then 4 times of my usual hours... and I am somewhat behind on school as it is...
besides, I would enjoy an evening on just focusing on my other work, aka. viola... since I am most likely performing the 12th.
[ okay, so working all the extra hours did have a nice financial side.. I got to buy a whole bunch of new Takarazuka stuff! *heart*]
god, I wish it would just be summervacation already... I am so sickly frustrated and scared.. but if I don't pass the final exams? then 3 years will be thrown away.. would mean nothing.. o god. what would I do then?
I know I should be positive, but still... I can't help but be a little scared.. it's only natural, isn't?
so now I am only living day to day--
irk.