fuck this...
so apparently i'm in danger of losing my job...gee, i've never been in that situation before...pfft...and as if the lady can really threaten me since i already see it coming. doesn't really matter to me since my job has little to do with my main proffesion so it's like i told the bigger boss. do what you have to do for the company, i'll do what's best for my family.
on the other hand, i've started training again...on and off, on and off...i guess i can't make up my mind on whether or not i want to beat the crap out of someone or see how much pain i can endure when i lose.
sometimes i can be just a tiny bit superstitious. back in high school i wore someone's donated used wrestling shoes my first year. i went 1-12 that year. the following year i dislocated my left arm and tore a ligament in my left knee prior to the season even starting. it was also the same year my mother chipped in and got me the most expensive nike wrestling shoes and despite my injuries i went 14-2 with two tournament wins. then comes the mixed martial arts thing. i went in with high hopes wearing those shoes and got my ass kicked big time. so now flash forward three years. i tried out a judo gi with a white belt and totally made mincemeat out of my opponent in a best of 3 bout. and so what did i learn? it's all in the mind. i lost my first MMA fight because i didn't train. but now that i've been keeping up with the program, i've been able to hold my own with semi-pros. all i need now is to test out the kickboxing gear.
on the other hand, i've started training again...on and off, on and off...i guess i can't make up my mind on whether or not i want to beat the crap out of someone or see how much pain i can endure when i lose.
sometimes i can be just a tiny bit superstitious. back in high school i wore someone's donated used wrestling shoes my first year. i went 1-12 that year. the following year i dislocated my left arm and tore a ligament in my left knee prior to the season even starting. it was also the same year my mother chipped in and got me the most expensive nike wrestling shoes and despite my injuries i went 14-2 with two tournament wins. then comes the mixed martial arts thing. i went in with high hopes wearing those shoes and got my ass kicked big time. so now flash forward three years. i tried out a judo gi with a white belt and totally made mincemeat out of my opponent in a best of 3 bout. and so what did i learn? it's all in the mind. i lost my first MMA fight because i didn't train. but now that i've been keeping up with the program, i've been able to hold my own with semi-pros. all i need now is to test out the kickboxing gear.