My Love , My Heart , My Happiness
Well it has been awhile ... I met a really nice guy named steve(names has been changed to protect the guilty/ innocent)... we have dated for about 2 months now . But i have not had a chance to see him since the begining of september. i am starting to think he found someone new or went back to his ex ... i am sooooooooo scared i am losing / lost him . for the past 2 months him and his son have been my happiness / joy . i don't want to lose that . i lost everything i had inside of me when my dad died . it was like i had a black hole inside of me until i met him . when he came along i relearned what it was like to feel alive again . i don't want to revisit those old feelings. hopefully things will turn around soon . there is nothing more that i want more than to feel him laying next to me and in my arms . tears are rolling down my cheeks as i write this . all i feel right now is lonliness. please help him to see how much he means to me and how much i need him !!!!