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Title: Dir En Wolf (Rewrite)
Rating: 18
Band: Dir En Grey
Pairings: Kaoru X Shinya, Die X Shinya (and others)
Summary: One night Die looses control and attacks a human named Shinya only to have Kaoru rush to his rescue. Knowing the only way to deal with the situation is to turn Shinya into one of them, a werewolf, he does that but a new wolf in the pack is sure to stir things up.
Chapter 1: Attack
Chapter 2: Awakening
Chapter 3: Acceptance
After about an hour drive Kaoru parked his car and the pair got out, Kaoru looking happy whilst Shinya merely looked worried. They were a long way from civilisation and in every direction there were trees and Shinya knew that they were in the middle of some wood or forest. No chance of finding help here. They barely even had to wait a minute before a second car parked behind Kaoru’s and the others got out looking excited.
“It’s been too long!” Toshiya exclaimed delighted.
“Too long.” Die agreed with a smile which faltered slightly as he looked at Kaoru and Shinya and remembered that he was in fact in trouble.
“What exactly are we doing here?” Shinya asked confused. Surely they hadn't gone all this way without purpose.
“Going for a run.” Kaoru replied as he began to head into the woods. The others followed him silently and Shinya wondered if he should make a run for it. He never got the chance as Kyo firmly took his hand and led him into the woods with the others. They walked for maybe five minutes until they were deep in the woods and away from the public footpaths. Shinya bit his lip nervously as he worried about getting lost and what they were planning to do to him.
“Here will do.” Kaoru decided as they reached a smallish clearing.
“It will?” Shinya asked puzzled. His puzzling soon turned to concern as Toshiya began to strip away his clothes. Trying to avert his eyes he noticed Die was doing the same. He tried to back away but found both Kaoru and Kyo had a firm, but gentle, grip on his arms.
“Let go of me!” Shinya panicked trying to pull away.
“It’s OK.” Kaoru comforted him. “We just want you to see so you will believe.”
“I already believe!” Shinya exclaimed. “You’re all a bunch of psycho’s who’ve kidnapped me!”
“Just wait and see for yourself.” Kaoru advised ignoring Shinya’s protests. It wasn’t long before Toshiya and Die were both naked and then to Shinya’s amazement their bodies began to change.
“What!” Shinya exclaimed before growing quiet. Before his very eyes both men were becoming wolves. It took about thirty seconds before the change was complete and two wolves stood before him.
“Now do you believe?” Kaoru asked and silently Shinya nodded. This couldn’t have been faked. What he had just seen had been entirely real and now he finally admitted that, he was able to admit other things too. His hearing and sense of smell had both become so much more acute since he had woken up. He felt both stronger and faster too. He had to admit that he did feel different and there was the matter of his wounds that seemed to have healed in just three days.
“You can become a wolf too.” Kaoru promised. “But you’ll need to undress first.”
“But…” Shinya muttered embarrassed.
“It’s our natural state. Don’t be embarrassed.” Kaoru informed him before letting him go.
“I don’t know.” Shinya muttered growing red. He was free now. He could run but then he’d never escape those two wolves watching him with intelligent, calculative eyes. They obviously still had there human intelligence. Besides, Shinya had to admit, he wanted to be a wolf. He loved animals.
“Does the change hurt?” Shinya asked as he began to undress nervously.
“No. Not at all.” Kaoru promised pleased that Shinya was being so cooperative. It wasn’t long before he and Kyo had stripped and Kyo began his change. Kaoru waited completely naked and proud as Shinya slowly removed his clothes. The moment the feminine man was naked Kaoru began to talk.
“To become a wolf you have to remember being a wolf.” Kaoru informed Shinya. “Picture yourself as a wolf. The same to become a man again. However you don’t have memories of being a wolf and so the first change may prove difficult. You need to imagine being a wolf.”
“How it feels to be a wolf?” Shinya repeated shutting his eyes and trying to do as told. Kaoru was right it was hard. How on earth was he meant to know how it felt to be a creature he wasn’t?
“Let me help.” Kaoru encouraged as he began to explain the feelings to Shinya. The image came clearer and suddenly there was a strange but painless feeling across his hand. Opening his eyes he saw fur growing on the back of his hand and his hand becoming a paw. Regaining his focus the feeling travelled up his arm and suddenly he was falling forward.
It took longer for Shinya to change than it did the others but he had managed it and looking around he saw four other wolves watching him with intelligent eyes. Before each wolf had looked more or less the same but now they looked so different it was amazing he had ever wondered how to tell them apart when they were all so obviously different.
Then the wolf who was Kaoru broke into a slow run and the others, including Shinya, followed. There was no purpose to there run, no direction, and yet it was the most thrilling thing Shinya had ever done. To run with a pack was to feel like he truly belonged as part of something bigger than himself. No human could ever understand it. It was beyond anything they could experience. Humans were guarded, protective of there secrets but wolves were free. No walls no boundaries. They were as one and five individual units all at once.
To his left he saw Toshiya leap over a fallen tree, to his right ran Kyo muscles rippling below the surface. He was powerful and dangerous. They all were.
Splashing across a stream, dodging around trees, startling birds resting in the foliage. This was to be truly alive. This was living. No wonder the others had been so keen to come here. There truly was nothing like it.
Then out of nowhere something plunged into his side knocking him from his paws. With a growl Shinya turned around to find Die touring over him. He tried to snap at the attacker but Die was already gone. Instinctively he was up ready for a fight only to see Die wasn’t attacking him at all. In his jaws was a stick and as Shinya watched Die tossed it ahead activating a steel trap Shinya himself would have otherwise run straight into.
Shinya crouched down, asking for forgiveness and Die accepted with a gentle lick to his muzzle. Happily Shinya got back up and side by side he ran with Die to catch up with the others who hadn’t noticed there absence yet.
Ahead they heard a yelp and the breaking of trigs and skidding to a stop they discovered a second trap. A concealed pit in which a furious wolf lay inside snarling. Kaoru. It was obvious no wolf could escape the trap himself but Kaoru was more than just a wolf. He was also a man and taking on that form Kaoru was able to climb out of the hole unaided. The laughing eyes of four wolves watching him.
“It’s not funny.” Kaoru complained. “There shouldn’t be traps here. It’s a national park. Some poacher is trespassing on this land.”
“It could have been worse.” Die announced after changing back himself. “There was a steel claw trap back there a little. It almost caught Shinya. If I hadn’t caught the glint of steel…”
“Maybe we should go home.” Kaoru suggested looking less than excited by the idea. “It’s too dangerous to run here any more.”
“It’s not fair!” Die complained kicking the dirt before beginning to change into a wolf yet again.
“We’re going back.” Kaoru ordered returning to his own wolf form. The traps had killed some of the excitement of the run and so there return was a lot more subdued. Still nothing could truly take from the thrill and happiness soon overtook them all once again.
Reaching the clearing where they discarded there clothes Shinya watched as one by one the others returned to there human forms. He was about to worry on if he could turn back when he remembered Kaoru’s words from before. Remember being human. Well that was easy enough and sure enough he was returning to his human form.
Unconcerned by his nudity Shinya smiled happily and began to get dressed. His clothes felt confining now. Unnatural. Rough. Still he knew that humans wore clothes and so he must too. Finally he was beginning to understand Die’s actions. It was so hard to remember human rules and customs when they made so little sense. Why be ashamed of your body and hide beneath clothes? Why cook your food when it tasted so much nicer raw?
“Die.” Shinya called softly knowing he had to say it while the thought was so raw. “I understand.”
“Understand what?” Kyo demanded but Die simply nodded. Something had changed when he’s saved Shinya from that trap. All mistrust had faded. They were of the same pack and so trust was absolute. Just like it had become for everyone else.
They arrived back at the mansion in the early evening and feeling hungry headed for the kitchen to get something to eat. After the meal Shinya nervously asked the question that had been bugging him since he had first got here.
“Kaoru. When can I go home?” Shinya asked.
“This is your home.” Kaoru replied sounding annoyed Shinya had even asked.
“I need to get my things.” Shinya stated firmly not denying Kaoru’s assumption. This was his home. Why on earth would he want to sleep anywhere other than with his pack?
“Like his dog.” Toshiya chimed in.
“I love dogs!” Kyo exclaimed happily. “They taste so…”
“NOBODY IS EATING MIYU!” Shinya shouted in horror and shocked silence followed. Since when had Shinya been so vocal?
“Nobody eats his dog.” Kaoru stated firmly glaring at Kyo.
“Fine.” Kyo sighed looking annoyed to have the treat dangled in front of him only to be snatched away.
“You can get your things now or tomorrow.” Kaoru decided. “I want your company tonight so if it has to be today you’d better go.”
“I’ll go now.” Shinya decided.
“Bring only what you need.” Kaoru ordered. “For the record I’ll buy you a nice car and you’ll get money from me so you don’t have to worry about that.”
“OK.” Shinya agreed wondering where Kaoru’s fortune came from but deciding it was better not to ask.
“I’ll drive you.” Toshiya happily offered and thanking him the two men headed for his car.
Shinya had lived in a small two bedroom apartment with another man named Hayate. They were room mates not lovers but still close friends and as he unlocked the door he found his room mate sitting in the living space watching TV.
“Shinya!” Hayate exclaimed. “Where on earth have you been? Who’s this?” He finished seeing Toshiya for the first time.
“Toshiya he’s…” Shinya began wondering not for the first time how he was going to explain his sudden departure.
“I’m his lover. He’s coming to live with me.” Toshiya announced firmly.
“What?” Hayate exclaimed. “When did you get a lover?”
“That’s none of your business.” Toshiya snapped.
“Ok.” Hayate muttered glancing nervously at Shinya. A silent question to ask if everything was alright.
“I’m sorry I didn’t tell you.” Shinya apologised realising Toshiya’s story was good enough to provide him an excuse. “We’ve been together for awhile but you know I’d be fired if my bosses found out I was seeing someone seriously. Have to be appear available and all that.”
“Like I’d have told.” Hayate sulked.
“Where’s Miyu?” Shinya asked noticing his absent dog.
“In your room.” Hayate replied. “I wonder why she hasn’t come to say hello. Maybe she’s forgotten who you are.”
“That’s not even funny!” Shinya complained as he went into his room with Toshiya close behind. “Miyu.” He called softly getting the dogs attention. Looking up Miyu growled softly starling her master. “Miyu?” Shinya repeated. “Don’t you recognise me?”
“Probably not. You’ll smell like wolf.” Toshiya whispered and Shinya sighed as he began the long process of convincing his dog he wasn’t there to hurt her. It took awhile and several treats before Miyu was happily sitting in Shinya’s lap.
“Shinya you need to pack.” Toshiya advised. “Kaoru wanted your company remember.”
“Yeah one minute.” Shinya agreed giving Miyu a final hug and putting her back on the floor.
“Why is your wardrobe filled with dresses?” Toshiya asked as he began to root throw Shinya’s things.
“Work.” Shinya repeated. “Some women like it when men cross dress. So that was my role within the host club.”
“Oh cool.” Toshiya replied. “I have some skirts at home you could borrow if you like.”
“I’m not sure if I will cross dress any more.” Shinya admitted.
“You should!” Toshiya exclaimed. “I bet you’d be beautiful!”
“We’ll see.” Shinya muttered as he placed some of his favourite dresses to pack anyway. He had been good at it and it’d be a shame to quit entirely. In fact now he thought of it he felt a sense of nostalgia at what he was giving up. He had been happy. Why throw all that away? It was crazy. Within the space of a few days he had come to the conclusion to give up everything and go live with four other men he barely knew but trusted completely.
“Something wrong?” Toshiya asked concerned as Shinya sat silent on his bed staring into space.
“Why do I trust you all so completely?” Shinya asked. “It doesn’t make sense.”
“Because you’re one of us.” Toshiya replied with a shrug. There was no explanation for it. Things were simply as they were because that’s how they should be.
“If it makes things easier.” Toshiya continued after a brief pause “The one thing wolves are best at is protecting there own. It’s in our very DNA.”
“I know. I feel it inside me.” Shinya replied. “Why else am I giving up my old life so completely?”
Rating: 18
Band: Dir En Grey
Pairings: Kaoru X Shinya, Die X Shinya (and others)
Summary: One night Die looses control and attacks a human named Shinya only to have Kaoru rush to his rescue. Knowing the only way to deal with the situation is to turn Shinya into one of them, a werewolf, he does that but a new wolf in the pack is sure to stir things up.
Chapter 1: Attack
Chapter 2: Awakening
Chapter 3: Acceptance
After about an hour drive Kaoru parked his car and the pair got out, Kaoru looking happy whilst Shinya merely looked worried. They were a long way from civilisation and in every direction there were trees and Shinya knew that they were in the middle of some wood or forest. No chance of finding help here. They barely even had to wait a minute before a second car parked behind Kaoru’s and the others got out looking excited.
“It’s been too long!” Toshiya exclaimed delighted.
“Too long.” Die agreed with a smile which faltered slightly as he looked at Kaoru and Shinya and remembered that he was in fact in trouble.
“What exactly are we doing here?” Shinya asked confused. Surely they hadn't gone all this way without purpose.
“Going for a run.” Kaoru replied as he began to head into the woods. The others followed him silently and Shinya wondered if he should make a run for it. He never got the chance as Kyo firmly took his hand and led him into the woods with the others. They walked for maybe five minutes until they were deep in the woods and away from the public footpaths. Shinya bit his lip nervously as he worried about getting lost and what they were planning to do to him.
“Here will do.” Kaoru decided as they reached a smallish clearing.
“It will?” Shinya asked puzzled. His puzzling soon turned to concern as Toshiya began to strip away his clothes. Trying to avert his eyes he noticed Die was doing the same. He tried to back away but found both Kaoru and Kyo had a firm, but gentle, grip on his arms.
“Let go of me!” Shinya panicked trying to pull away.
“It’s OK.” Kaoru comforted him. “We just want you to see so you will believe.”
“I already believe!” Shinya exclaimed. “You’re all a bunch of psycho’s who’ve kidnapped me!”
“Just wait and see for yourself.” Kaoru advised ignoring Shinya’s protests. It wasn’t long before Toshiya and Die were both naked and then to Shinya’s amazement their bodies began to change.
“What!” Shinya exclaimed before growing quiet. Before his very eyes both men were becoming wolves. It took about thirty seconds before the change was complete and two wolves stood before him.
“Now do you believe?” Kaoru asked and silently Shinya nodded. This couldn’t have been faked. What he had just seen had been entirely real and now he finally admitted that, he was able to admit other things too. His hearing and sense of smell had both become so much more acute since he had woken up. He felt both stronger and faster too. He had to admit that he did feel different and there was the matter of his wounds that seemed to have healed in just three days.
“You can become a wolf too.” Kaoru promised. “But you’ll need to undress first.”
“But…” Shinya muttered embarrassed.
“It’s our natural state. Don’t be embarrassed.” Kaoru informed him before letting him go.
“I don’t know.” Shinya muttered growing red. He was free now. He could run but then he’d never escape those two wolves watching him with intelligent, calculative eyes. They obviously still had there human intelligence. Besides, Shinya had to admit, he wanted to be a wolf. He loved animals.
“Does the change hurt?” Shinya asked as he began to undress nervously.
“No. Not at all.” Kaoru promised pleased that Shinya was being so cooperative. It wasn’t long before he and Kyo had stripped and Kyo began his change. Kaoru waited completely naked and proud as Shinya slowly removed his clothes. The moment the feminine man was naked Kaoru began to talk.
“To become a wolf you have to remember being a wolf.” Kaoru informed Shinya. “Picture yourself as a wolf. The same to become a man again. However you don’t have memories of being a wolf and so the first change may prove difficult. You need to imagine being a wolf.”
“How it feels to be a wolf?” Shinya repeated shutting his eyes and trying to do as told. Kaoru was right it was hard. How on earth was he meant to know how it felt to be a creature he wasn’t?
“Let me help.” Kaoru encouraged as he began to explain the feelings to Shinya. The image came clearer and suddenly there was a strange but painless feeling across his hand. Opening his eyes he saw fur growing on the back of his hand and his hand becoming a paw. Regaining his focus the feeling travelled up his arm and suddenly he was falling forward.
It took longer for Shinya to change than it did the others but he had managed it and looking around he saw four other wolves watching him with intelligent eyes. Before each wolf had looked more or less the same but now they looked so different it was amazing he had ever wondered how to tell them apart when they were all so obviously different.
Then the wolf who was Kaoru broke into a slow run and the others, including Shinya, followed. There was no purpose to there run, no direction, and yet it was the most thrilling thing Shinya had ever done. To run with a pack was to feel like he truly belonged as part of something bigger than himself. No human could ever understand it. It was beyond anything they could experience. Humans were guarded, protective of there secrets but wolves were free. No walls no boundaries. They were as one and five individual units all at once.
To his left he saw Toshiya leap over a fallen tree, to his right ran Kyo muscles rippling below the surface. He was powerful and dangerous. They all were.
Splashing across a stream, dodging around trees, startling birds resting in the foliage. This was to be truly alive. This was living. No wonder the others had been so keen to come here. There truly was nothing like it.
Then out of nowhere something plunged into his side knocking him from his paws. With a growl Shinya turned around to find Die touring over him. He tried to snap at the attacker but Die was already gone. Instinctively he was up ready for a fight only to see Die wasn’t attacking him at all. In his jaws was a stick and as Shinya watched Die tossed it ahead activating a steel trap Shinya himself would have otherwise run straight into.
Shinya crouched down, asking for forgiveness and Die accepted with a gentle lick to his muzzle. Happily Shinya got back up and side by side he ran with Die to catch up with the others who hadn’t noticed there absence yet.
Ahead they heard a yelp and the breaking of trigs and skidding to a stop they discovered a second trap. A concealed pit in which a furious wolf lay inside snarling. Kaoru. It was obvious no wolf could escape the trap himself but Kaoru was more than just a wolf. He was also a man and taking on that form Kaoru was able to climb out of the hole unaided. The laughing eyes of four wolves watching him.
“It’s not funny.” Kaoru complained. “There shouldn’t be traps here. It’s a national park. Some poacher is trespassing on this land.”
“It could have been worse.” Die announced after changing back himself. “There was a steel claw trap back there a little. It almost caught Shinya. If I hadn’t caught the glint of steel…”
“Maybe we should go home.” Kaoru suggested looking less than excited by the idea. “It’s too dangerous to run here any more.”
“It’s not fair!” Die complained kicking the dirt before beginning to change into a wolf yet again.
“We’re going back.” Kaoru ordered returning to his own wolf form. The traps had killed some of the excitement of the run and so there return was a lot more subdued. Still nothing could truly take from the thrill and happiness soon overtook them all once again.
Reaching the clearing where they discarded there clothes Shinya watched as one by one the others returned to there human forms. He was about to worry on if he could turn back when he remembered Kaoru’s words from before. Remember being human. Well that was easy enough and sure enough he was returning to his human form.
Unconcerned by his nudity Shinya smiled happily and began to get dressed. His clothes felt confining now. Unnatural. Rough. Still he knew that humans wore clothes and so he must too. Finally he was beginning to understand Die’s actions. It was so hard to remember human rules and customs when they made so little sense. Why be ashamed of your body and hide beneath clothes? Why cook your food when it tasted so much nicer raw?
“Die.” Shinya called softly knowing he had to say it while the thought was so raw. “I understand.”
“Understand what?” Kyo demanded but Die simply nodded. Something had changed when he’s saved Shinya from that trap. All mistrust had faded. They were of the same pack and so trust was absolute. Just like it had become for everyone else.
They arrived back at the mansion in the early evening and feeling hungry headed for the kitchen to get something to eat. After the meal Shinya nervously asked the question that had been bugging him since he had first got here.
“Kaoru. When can I go home?” Shinya asked.
“This is your home.” Kaoru replied sounding annoyed Shinya had even asked.
“I need to get my things.” Shinya stated firmly not denying Kaoru’s assumption. This was his home. Why on earth would he want to sleep anywhere other than with his pack?
“Like his dog.” Toshiya chimed in.
“I love dogs!” Kyo exclaimed happily. “They taste so…”
“NOBODY IS EATING MIYU!” Shinya shouted in horror and shocked silence followed. Since when had Shinya been so vocal?
“Nobody eats his dog.” Kaoru stated firmly glaring at Kyo.
“Fine.” Kyo sighed looking annoyed to have the treat dangled in front of him only to be snatched away.
“You can get your things now or tomorrow.” Kaoru decided. “I want your company tonight so if it has to be today you’d better go.”
“I’ll go now.” Shinya decided.
“Bring only what you need.” Kaoru ordered. “For the record I’ll buy you a nice car and you’ll get money from me so you don’t have to worry about that.”
“OK.” Shinya agreed wondering where Kaoru’s fortune came from but deciding it was better not to ask.
“I’ll drive you.” Toshiya happily offered and thanking him the two men headed for his car.
Shinya had lived in a small two bedroom apartment with another man named Hayate. They were room mates not lovers but still close friends and as he unlocked the door he found his room mate sitting in the living space watching TV.
“Shinya!” Hayate exclaimed. “Where on earth have you been? Who’s this?” He finished seeing Toshiya for the first time.
“Toshiya he’s…” Shinya began wondering not for the first time how he was going to explain his sudden departure.
“I’m his lover. He’s coming to live with me.” Toshiya announced firmly.
“What?” Hayate exclaimed. “When did you get a lover?”
“That’s none of your business.” Toshiya snapped.
“Ok.” Hayate muttered glancing nervously at Shinya. A silent question to ask if everything was alright.
“I’m sorry I didn’t tell you.” Shinya apologised realising Toshiya’s story was good enough to provide him an excuse. “We’ve been together for awhile but you know I’d be fired if my bosses found out I was seeing someone seriously. Have to be appear available and all that.”
“Like I’d have told.” Hayate sulked.
“Where’s Miyu?” Shinya asked noticing his absent dog.
“In your room.” Hayate replied. “I wonder why she hasn’t come to say hello. Maybe she’s forgotten who you are.”
“That’s not even funny!” Shinya complained as he went into his room with Toshiya close behind. “Miyu.” He called softly getting the dogs attention. Looking up Miyu growled softly starling her master. “Miyu?” Shinya repeated. “Don’t you recognise me?”
“Probably not. You’ll smell like wolf.” Toshiya whispered and Shinya sighed as he began the long process of convincing his dog he wasn’t there to hurt her. It took awhile and several treats before Miyu was happily sitting in Shinya’s lap.
“Shinya you need to pack.” Toshiya advised. “Kaoru wanted your company remember.”
“Yeah one minute.” Shinya agreed giving Miyu a final hug and putting her back on the floor.
“Why is your wardrobe filled with dresses?” Toshiya asked as he began to root throw Shinya’s things.
“Work.” Shinya repeated. “Some women like it when men cross dress. So that was my role within the host club.”
“Oh cool.” Toshiya replied. “I have some skirts at home you could borrow if you like.”
“I’m not sure if I will cross dress any more.” Shinya admitted.
“You should!” Toshiya exclaimed. “I bet you’d be beautiful!”
“We’ll see.” Shinya muttered as he placed some of his favourite dresses to pack anyway. He had been good at it and it’d be a shame to quit entirely. In fact now he thought of it he felt a sense of nostalgia at what he was giving up. He had been happy. Why throw all that away? It was crazy. Within the space of a few days he had come to the conclusion to give up everything and go live with four other men he barely knew but trusted completely.
“Something wrong?” Toshiya asked concerned as Shinya sat silent on his bed staring into space.
“Why do I trust you all so completely?” Shinya asked. “It doesn’t make sense.”
“Because you’re one of us.” Toshiya replied with a shrug. There was no explanation for it. Things were simply as they were because that’s how they should be.
“If it makes things easier.” Toshiya continued after a brief pause “The one thing wolves are best at is protecting there own. It’s in our very DNA.”
“I know. I feel it inside me.” Shinya replied. “Why else am I giving up my old life so completely?”