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Title: Pieces
Rating: 18
Bands: Sugizo, Miyavi as well as various others.
Pairing: Sugizo x Miyavi
Summary: What do you do when your life falls apart around you and there is nothing left but broken pieces of what was? How do you rebuild when the pieces left behind no longer create the picture from before? Will the pieces that remain ever become anything of significance? You have to hope that the pieces can become a new whole because otherwise there would be no reason to go on but who said you had to reassemble your life alone?
Previous Chapters
Chapter Twenty Five
Miyavi wanted nothing more than to cause a scene right there in the middle of the café, but that wouldn't have been wise even if the place hadn't had a few of the early customers sitting at the tables, so instead he calmly, and politely requested Shinji's presence in the office. All eyes were on them now but it was only Shinji that Miyavi paid any attention to. Silently cursing himself for not sensing trouble after the other had given him that video and almost ruined his relationship with Sugizo once before. He had taken it so innocently though, a friend trying to warn him of the truth and he had been grateful that the other had been watching out for him. He had needed to know the truth about his lover and perhaps without Shinji Sugizo would have kept everything secret, he was so very good at keeping secrets, so good in fact that Miyavi wondered if Sugizo could keep his promise to be more open and honest from now on. Sugizo had promised he would so Miyavi would have faith in him despite his concerns.
Guilt was written over Shinji's face as he sat angrily in the office but it was Sugizo's reaction that Miyavi worried about. He should send Sugizo out but trusting him alone wasn't good either and so in the end Sugizo stayed having enough sense to remain deathly silent.
“These are yours.” Miyavi commented placing the posters down in front of Shinji knowing Maya wasn't going to accuse him, his boss was too shocked it was Shinji in here as he was one of the best butlers in the café.
“This is messed up, your punishing me because your boyfriend is an addict?” Shinji demanded.
“You really did this?” Maya asked stunned, he'd been prepared to defend his employee and hadn't expected a confession.
“You're too nice Maya, and Miyavi is clearly blind to Sugizo's flaws, I had to do something to make sure appropriate action would be taken.” Shinji explained.
“You really think that even if this did tear Sugizo and I apart I’d end up with you?” Miyavi demanded. “After you did this... god I can't even talk to you.”
“Miyavi...” Shinji stammered as the realisation that everything had gone terribly wrong took over him. Looking at the three men, two who were holding back anger and Maya who looked devastated, it occurred to him that all he'd done was get himself in trouble. No worse, he'd actually brought Miyavi and Sugizo closer together, the exact opposite of what he had wanted.
“Save it.” Miyavi snapped. “What you did was underhand, sneaky and spiteful.”
“You deserve better than him.” Shinji snapped. “You think he can treat you right? You think he will make you happy in the long run? A life with him is a life of disappointment.”
“Who are you to say who's good for Miyavi?” Sugizo demanded. “Who are you to think you'd be a better match? You were an addict too. Oh did you leave that of your posters? Strange seeing as we met in rehab!”
“Guys calm down.” Maya snapped. “Shinji, due to this harassment you are suspended until your disciplinary hearing tomorrow at 11. Just give me a minute to print of the letter.”
“You're suspending me?” Shinji demanded.
“I have no choice.” Maya replied as he made a few alterations to the default template and pressed print. Silence filled the office as the printer did it's work. Taking the warm paper Maya handed it to Shinji who glared at in in disbelief before storming out of the café furious at everyone and everything. “He was one of the best.” Maya complained.
“You can't keep it.” Miyavi reminded him. “Not after this.”
“I'll fire him. I can't have my employees acting like this.” Maya agreed with a sigh. “I'll get Aiji to sit in the meeting with me though, you're too close to be an impartial witness.”
“Maya, I'm sorry.” Sugizo apologised. “If I wasn't so messed up...”
“Take the day off.” Maya ordered. “Your angry and upset, Miyavi too. Neither of you should be in work today.”
“Maya, are you sure?” Miyavi asked.
“Please, just go.” Maya ordered. “I'll call Aiji or something. Go.”
“Poor Maya.” Miyavi commented as they sat in a small café not to far away. “Shinji was his friend you know.”
“He was honestly trying to protect you, Shinji I mean.” Sugizo replied. “What if he's right? What if I only bring you pain?”
“Then I dump your sorry ass and find someone else, but it would never be Shinji. Not now.” Miyavi replied taking Sugizo's hand. “Really don't blame yourself, what Shinji did reflects who he is not you. He'd have found some other secret if it hadn't been this.”
“What I don't get is why now?” Sugizo asked.
“I don't know.” Miyavi replied. “I think perhaps he thought he'd scared me away the first time, when he gave me that video. He knew we'd argued over it, perhaps he thought that was enough to keep me away from you? Perhaps he only recently found out different.”
“Or maybe it took him awhile to find out my parents address.” Sugizo suggested with a sigh. “So it was Shinji who gave you that video?”
“Yeah, Shinji told me you were an addict too.” Miyavi admitted with a sigh.
“I love you.” Sugizo reassured Miyavi as he pulled him close. “For being so understanding and patient. Your loyalty is legendary.”
“Someone has to keep you out of trouble.” Miyavi teased.
“Is that so?” Sugizo asked kissing Miyavi tenderly trying to hold back the passion within him. As bad as this morning should have been he realised it had actually turned out pretty well, Maya hadn't been too bothered by his past, Shinji was no longer going to be sniffing around his boyfriend and he now had all day with Miyavi to look forward too. Things could have been better but he was going to live in the present, at least for today, and he already had some ideas about what he wanted to do. His future would be about Miyavi and himself because he had finally realised his past shouldn't be allowed to hurt him.
It was a few weeks later and Miyavi sat on the sofa watching Sugizo play with the three girls feeling like his life was finally back on track. When his grief had subsided he wasn't sure but he no longer felt guilty for Melody's death. He had done all he could for her and he finally realised that if Melody could see him again she would only bless his happiness. He had his children, a loving boyfriend and a house to call his home, made all the better because soon Sugizo would be moving in. A massive step but his children understood that he loved Sugizo and had been delighted to have him around.
Glancing at his lover Miyavi knew Sugizo's problems wouldn't be as easy to solve. You could recover from the loss of a love one, and whilst Melody would always be important to him she was no longer affecting the present. Addiction wasn't like that, it was always there and one day it might take control and rip everything to shreds but Miyavi refused to accept that. Sugizo was stronger than he gave himself credit for, he had taken his disastrous past and for the most part left it behind. Any fool could see this and that's why it hadn't been to much of a surprise to find out Misei had offered Sugizo the chance to spend time with Luna alone. It had only been for an hour, and he had to be in a public space, but Sugizo had come home that day happier than Miyavi had ever seen him. Perhaps one day in the not so distant future Sugizo would finally get real visitation rights, not that he needed them any more as Sugizo's idea of a good time with his daughter seemed to involve days like this when they were together and all three girls were playing happily.
“Daddy why are you smiling?” Jewelie asked making Miyavi grin even more.
“I'm just thinking how nice it is to have my family all together.” Miyavi explained.
“Am I your family?” Luna asked.
“Off course, you're my honorary daughter.” Miyavi reassured her making Sugizo smile too.
“You're both being lovey dovey again.” Jewelie pouted. “Stop it.”
“Why?” Miyavi asked laughing.
“Because you're meant to love us most!” Jewelie replied making the two older girls laugh.
“They have special love.” Lovelie explained knowledgeably.
“How is it special?” Jewelie asked confused.
“It's adult love.” Lovelie replied, her answer satisfying her sister.
“Daddy, why do you love Miyavi?” Luna asked.
“Because whenever I have a bad day he makes it brighter by just being there.” Sugizo explained. “And if I'm having a good day he makes it even better.”
“OK.” Luna replied. “Miyavi why do you love my Daddy?”
“Because without him there's a hole in my life that nobody else can fill.” Miyavi explained. “But mainly because he makes the best dinners.”
“Go cook dinner daddy. We're hungry.” Luna demanded and laughing Sugizo got up knowing he had just been manipulated to do the cooking but not caring in the slightest, though that wouldn't stop him from making Miyavi pay in sexual favours later for manipulating him like this. Life might be good right now but that didn't mean they could get to comfortable, it was important to remember to treat each other with proper respect, to never grow slack in showing each other how much there love meant. The very last thing that he would allow to happen was for this new family to fall to pieces, it meant to much for that.
Author's Final Words: I'd just like to thank everyone who's read this story from begining to end. I really focused on actually finishing this one and i'm glad I did. That been said at this point I will ask everyone to make sure to comment. Your feedback is important to me but just knowing people read my work is enough.