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Truthfully, I have no real bestfriends. And if I do ..I have a feeling that they didn't even think the same about me. I've always thought Rohy was my real first bestfriend. But then she betrayed me. She just left me without a word and BOOM ..she has a new bestfriend. Oh and did I mention she has two after she ditched me? I was crushed and heartbroken of course. It took me quite some time to actually trust someone. Honestly after her I thought I found a new bestfriend but it turns out a lie. Atleast I feel like it. I don't know. They didn't look honest or loyal. I've always wanted a bestfriend who would always be there for me no matter what. And that she would drop everything just to be there for me and cheer me up. We'll have late night movies, gossip/talk for hours while eating an ice-cream or whatever. I want a bestfriend that is protective and always stood up for me even if I didn't ask her to. I want a fuckin' honest and loyal friend. I want a friend who won't broke their promise. I don't want to be the last resort. I want to be a good friend and listens to their problems at the same they listen to mine. You know sometimes I feel like strangling them because they never listen to my advice or even anyone and then blame themselves and hating life. You always have a solution but you never follow! THAT IS SO PATHETIC! I want a friendship like Brooke/Haley @ Brooke/Peyton. That's all I ask.
I'm fuckin' depressed. I feel angry, sad, bitter, annoyed and all this are killin' me. I could just breakdown at any second but I won't! I just WON'T!
I'm fuckin' depressed. I feel angry, sad, bitter, annoyed and all this are killin' me. I could just breakdown at any second but I won't! I just WON'T!