he's getting married.
Crushes are supposed to be innocent, exquisite, and supposed to make you feel fantastic, but this crush right here…
This crush comes with some of the worst anguish I’ve ever felt in my life. This crush makes me want to wrench my eyes out with a spade saturated in poison. This crush makes me want to kick and scream in frustration until I can no longer breathe. This crush is exactly what the name implies: a crush and it’s crushing the life out of me…
And I can’t let it, not anymore.
But ..
Being forced to keep distance is some of the worst torture I’ve ever subjected myself to.
Everyday this crush goes unrequited and it hurts so much.
…it’s like a tiny piece of me is sloughed off.