Because I know love...

If any of you have spent more than a few minutes getting to know me, if we've talked in more than a comment about something fandom related, than you know that my life revolves around my son... My Sunshine, my whole world, and i lost him last Friday. I can't seem to sleep tonight, not that it's much different from the last four, but my body seems to know that once i go to sleep the next thing I'll know is waking up and I'll have to say good-bye to him for the second time in five days. I haven't been around much because life hasn't been easy lately, but now that it's gone from hard and unkind, to impossible and unthinkable, i just really don't know what to do... I'm lost.

If you have kids, don't let one day go by that you don't hug them and tell them how much you love them. If you don't have kids then take the time to tell your husband, your wife, your best friends, your parents. Make the time and make the effort because it's worth it in the end. One thing I'm certain of is that my son, Randy, knew he was loved and treasured beyond everything else and that does bring some comfort to a reality filled with mostly pain, sadness and loss.

My Miracle, born on 10/16 at 10:16am. He had some complications after he was born and I finally brought him home on the day before Thanksgiving, 11/26/97, I lost him exactly 13 years later, and I will forever treasure every second that he touched my life and made me a better person.

Randy you are loved, and because I was blessed to have you, I knew love in the truest sense in return... Thank You Sunshine!!!