its bad really bad
hes gone. tyler is gone.im never gonna see him again.damn it i loved him why of all people did it have to be him i love. my heart stoped beating in your eyes i lost place im melting in your eyes just stay lay with me now every second im without you im a mess learning how to love could stay a while that i caught fire lets sleep till the sun burns out. ahhh that song reminds me of the last time i saw him i didnt wanna let him go. i stood there holding on to him wondering wiil we always be this way will we always have eachother or will our frindship fall apart like my friendship with mike. i learned somethiing: never trust anyone with your heart especially your friends because odds are all they will do is hurt you. i cried after he left i never got to tell him that he was one of the only people who made me happy. my life is falling apart at the seams. im gonna crack i cant help being like this. if there was one thing i could do rightt is just run and find tyler and never let him go again, never give up on us. ther was one other person that did make me happy but i guess im not good enough for him. who ever i date in the future has got to break down a lot of barriers around my heart and i am saying now it will take them along very long time to do that. my weakness is that i care to much. i have one thing to say to mike: why build up our friendship, tell me your gonna visit me when your 20, then you go and destroy it all. damn it why did you do that you fucking asshole. do you have any idea how it felt to lose a best friend someone you believed in someone you believed would never hurt you. someone you thought could help you. i thougth it was all my fault but now i see that its all your fault mike your the one that di this not me so you deal with what happened got cause im not going to anymore.