Aug 15, 2005 14:41
WEll i dont think i have to say anything at the time being..because i know im going to hear it a million times from everyone else. Im just going to say that ive never cried so much in my life..all night...i cried myself to sleep and i havent done that im long time....Heres what was written to me...you know what...thats my business.. the most hurtful part was "If you continue to question me, im going to block you and ill be going offline forever." I dont even want to talk about it. If i go there tomorrow..its going to be to say goodbye. ...i such a fucking retard. He said that he liked me when we first met...but not anymore. That only "Father time will know if hell ever like me again"....and here i am thinking he does like me. That ive changed....if i hear one more mother fucking person say that ive changed,i swear to god im going to rip their heart out of their foot....Can someone tell me how i used to be? ....Alex moss is coming back to NP this year....i need to switch locks with someone because he knows my locker combo...if i switched now then he wont know who really has mine. Can someone help me out?...This year is going to blow i swear..if any of you need me ill be with Mr.Menhinick...alll year. At least i cant get made fun of in there.....or hurt...but fuck it...i dont care anymore.Nothing hurts anymore....i hate life. Fuck everybody...ARRRRRGGGGGGGGHHHHHHH why the hell cant i just live a normal life...why cant people just fuck off. i wish God would just....first exsist and then..just fucking kill me....GOOOODDDD!!!....it makes me so angry..i have no boyfriend,i have no fucking talent...and whatever talent i have will go to waste anyways.Ill never amount to anything....this just fucking sucks...no one can help me either...cuz ive already tried to get anti depressants...but nooooo mom doesnt think i need them....so whatever...i dont care.....FUCK someone LOVE ME!!!!!!!!!
*All thats been. And all thats been between, Is it gone? Tell me what went wrong.*
*Find yourself another soul to hold. You think, you thought, I know. Off upon my journey I must go. To where the river flows.*
The Vampire Zero
Kayla Sevier
The Princess of Darkness