Michael left me a note! Hurray!
My mind is all mixed up right now. There's just been so much to think about lately, but doing it makes me feel even worse than normal. Mike is joining the army. How should I feel? I don't want to stand in his way, but I'm afraid for him. Gram says that if they ship him overseas he'll never come home, even if they send him to Europe or somewhere. What should I do? I won't stop him, (this was his decision) but what about him and I? There's things I need to say, but can't or won't, things he does that makes me want him to just disappear, and plans we've made that might not come true now. I don't like being afraid. Just even thinking about thinking about him not being there is just too much... I dunno. I don't know what I think.