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trying SO hard not to cry.
i hate crying, i hardly ever cry anymore. it takes a LOT to make me cry and this has almost done it.
everything has fallen apart. now ive been banned from speaking to the one and only person who actually cares about me. life is so shit. i cant deal with this anymore. i just want it all to go away. i wish i could black it out and it would never come back. i just want to give up. life only causes you pain. nothing is worth it, you only end up getting hurt in the end. So many bad things have happened in my life already, i dont see why its continuing, give me a break already. surely i deserve a bit of slack now after everything ive been through. i cant look back on my life so far and remember a happy time, all the memories are torn from death, illness, depression and break ups - and im only 17. Nobody understands, no one has any idea because they dont want to listen.
ive fought for too long, im tired now.
there is absolutely no one to talk to.