im coming apart
omg. it feels so good to not be on myspace right now. I mean not only do I have my own page but the FB page as well, and Im proud of it but shit im tired. I hang out all day with Ash and then I get home at 10pm and stay up till 1 am uploading pictures and fucking around with stupid shit, just to upload a page that prolly means more to me and jackie then anyone else. and ashley too. But finally I think its up to a "just check it once a week" status. prolly not, but oh well. I swear that website should have never been thought of. I fucking hate you myspace. I hate how everyone there has a profile and its utter convience. Its completely homogay in some offhand awkward way. I don't know what to do. I have too much real world shit to deal with and im drowning in everyone elses sorrows wich on SO many levels is completely idiotic. I just want to do crazy shit with cool people and my god if they cant keep from making that difficult I dont know what the fuck to do. I haven't seen hanna yet ..... i dont even want to discuss this cause its ... its stupid. i feel like im surrounded by unhinged lunnies they just happen to be my friends. It's so god damn awkward being here cause every other word and every conversation and every other look and glance from everyone I know just feels mocking. I feel like everyone swears they know better and would have handled the situation differently but heres a nice lil nugget for you WE ARE ALL GOING TO FUCKING DIE! and none of this highschool bullshit is going to fucking matter.
I went to the beach today. Now im this wierd chocolate color. Why do I do this to myself. Now I have to survive it being hot all the time cause I got to much sun in my system. I want to get drunk so bad, with someone that I prolly don't know. When you do it with people you do know.... fuck it.
sometimes I wish i just heard voices atleast that way some of this shit would make a lil more sense to not just me but the unidentified 'strangers' that read this unofficial bullshit.
i really want a green apple soda. those things are fucking delicious.
I went to the beach today. Now im this wierd chocolate color. Why do I do this to myself. Now I have to survive it being hot all the time cause I got to much sun in my system. I want to get drunk so bad, with someone that I prolly don't know. When you do it with people you do know.... fuck it.
sometimes I wish i just heard voices atleast that way some of this shit would make a lil more sense to not just me but the unidentified 'strangers' that read this unofficial bullshit.
i really want a green apple soda. those things are fucking delicious.