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I don't really think that anyone reads this anymore. It's been almost 4 years since I last posted to it. But I miss being able to miscellaneously post thoughts to the world, and I miss being able to freely speak my mind, so because of that here we go.
I hate that women lie, I hate that everyone lies, i just don't understand it anymore. there is so much hurt that goes throughout this world and you would think that one would be able to realize that they don't need to prolong that hurt by lying. You know what I would love is some amount of honesty, some modicum of truth and feeling so that when one gets attached they don't have to worry about getting hurt. I know that she's out there, the one that I love that one that i will be with. The woman who willl look at me and melt, who will tell me she melted, who I can look at and be disarmed of all things. I wish I could find her sooner rather then later, but I guess that's just up to the world to determine. Sometimes I wonder if I found her, sometimes I think that I have other times i feel as if I have, others time I know that she is in fact far away from my reach. I don't know if any of this is making sense and that's the beauty of it all is that I know someone might read this some day but the fact is that it doesn't matter I am writing this for myself as much as for the other person. I miss the piggy noises, I miss the dropping of the teeth, Everyone woman that I have been with has left me with something and I never know quite what it means, and I never know if I will ever find it again. I miss being in love, I miss knowing without any doubt that this woman makes me feel everything, and can tear me apart....I miss it all....I miss ever touch...I just want something....and I can't find it right now, guess I should stop looking right............right.......
I hate that women lie, I hate that everyone lies, i just don't understand it anymore. there is so much hurt that goes throughout this world and you would think that one would be able to realize that they don't need to prolong that hurt by lying. You know what I would love is some amount of honesty, some modicum of truth and feeling so that when one gets attached they don't have to worry about getting hurt. I know that she's out there, the one that I love that one that i will be with. The woman who willl look at me and melt, who will tell me she melted, who I can look at and be disarmed of all things. I wish I could find her sooner rather then later, but I guess that's just up to the world to determine. Sometimes I wonder if I found her, sometimes I think that I have other times i feel as if I have, others time I know that she is in fact far away from my reach. I don't know if any of this is making sense and that's the beauty of it all is that I know someone might read this some day but the fact is that it doesn't matter I am writing this for myself as much as for the other person. I miss the piggy noises, I miss the dropping of the teeth, Everyone woman that I have been with has left me with something and I never know quite what it means, and I never know if I will ever find it again. I miss being in love, I miss knowing without any doubt that this woman makes me feel everything, and can tear me apart....I miss it all....I miss ever touch...I just want something....and I can't find it right now, guess I should stop looking right............right.......