AHHHHH
Well once again the only time I actually write in here is when im at work.... Baby Phil went to go play in the back for prob another hour.... while im stuck here starving and can't leave! God I feel like I'm going to explode! Between all the shit in my head I'm trying to control (depo crap) and my body shot to shit!!! FUCK! I can't look myself in the miror without wanting to ball my ass off... I've gott'n so fucking fat! I totally don't feel attractive at all I have no idea how chris would want to lay a hand on me!!!! God I want to have a breakdown just so I can release some of this shit!!!!! No matter what I do it just wont' go away! I work my ass off at this shithole of a job getting yelled at and never getting any respect for anything cause im a fucking woman! so therefore I have NO oppinion or BRAINS for that matter!! FUCK I HATE ITALIAN MEN! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
And I want to just blow up at everyone and everything I see and do! OMG! *breaks down*
And I want to just blow up at everyone and everything I see and do! OMG! *breaks down*