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i just realized... my grandmother will never see me graduate college. both of my brothers got to have her there, but i wont. i only hope my other grandma will make it that far... but the other one... the dead one... she was MY grandma. MINE. the other one has hundreds of grandkids. my grandma will never know what ive been doing. she'll never see me perform in another show. she'll never see how well i learned cards from her. i dont know where this comes from but i just randomly miss having her at times. just knowing when i have some big event she wont be there really hurts. i cant even remember how long it has been since she died. not long enough i guess since i still cry over her.
i guess im just going to think about other things to stop thinking about that...
im gonna go back to watching animals on the national geographic channel. and thinking about how soon school will end. today felt like a summery day and i liked it. the feeling of being summer sort of ended when my dad drove me back downtown however. having to talk with my dad can easily ruin any good feeling had.
i guess im just going to think about other things to stop thinking about that...
im gonna go back to watching animals on the national geographic channel. and thinking about how soon school will end. today felt like a summery day and i liked it. the feeling of being summer sort of ended when my dad drove me back downtown however. having to talk with my dad can easily ruin any good feeling had.