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dear [so and so,]
i dreamt of you last night as i often do. myself and others stumbled upon your wedding in a most accidental fashion. there was a tradition that the bride and groom must greet all of their guests before the ceremony. you were, of course, shocked by my random appearance at such an occasion. i watched longingly as you tightly hugged your many friends and family members. before i knew it, the crowd had mashed us together in a most inevitable fashion. we embraced. it was warm and exhilarating. you slowly locked your baby blues on mine, and i watched as you cautiously inched your lips closer and closer. backing away out of instinct, every dream i've had of those lips, waking or in sleep, flashed through my head. i stood paralyzed by the shock of your actions, and dumbfounded by the confusion of my reaction. crashing your joyous nuptial was far from my intention, and i refused to play the role of "home-wrecker." as soon as you turned to join your bride, a tidal wave of regret washed over me.
you could have been mine, even if only for the brief moment in which a kiss belongs. the world would have stopped, my heart would have stopped.
it took three of my companions to pull me out of the aisle after the ceremony had begun. both you and your bride were painted in black and white. she wore red. nothing of this event made sense to me. it looked as if you were having a costume party. (much like the intentions we had for our own celebration many years ago.) i flailed my limbs with disregard. i yelled. i screamed. i cried in desperation. why had i not accepted my one and only chance to become the evening sky? to envelop the world in our most perfect shade of blue. to be home.
there was a balcony on which i sat with varying company. the view was of the tops of trees, and i could hear the muffled noises coming from inside. within the trees, i could see the birds hoping from branch to branch, and i watched as the sun set and the sky gently transformed from one blue to the next. gradually, i become lost in my thoughts, but began to notice how much larger each bird had grown. before i knew it, the birds were enormous! i frantically directed all attention to the tree tops. there was a horse balancing among the leaves! there was a dinosaur, there was a bull, and a giant goat! how had these creatures come to find themselves grazing among the birds?! we all stared wide-eyed in utter disbelief.
as we stood motionless, our gaze was instantly directed to a giant, smoky figure looming above us. he began swinging his arms wildly, smashing his fists into the side of the building, crushing bricks and bodies simultaneously. panicked screams filled my ears, and the guests began trampling each other in fear. i ran and jumped as nimbly as i could in an attempt to avoid the blows of this monster and of my fellow humans. darting through the halls of what now seemed to be a massive piece of architecture, i caught a glimpse of a door that seemed to promise escape.
i stood in the dark, my breath heavy with terror. quickly i realized that i was not alone in this warm, damp corridor. a shaky hand grasped mine. instantly i recognized the shape of your fingers, and then the smell from your rapidly breathing lungs. you pressed your lips against mine and lifted my face with your hands.
the world stopped! my heart stopped!
i woke up.
disappointed.
these images will not leave my thoughts. these scents will not escape my nose. my senses have been overwhelmed since i awoke this morning.
some things will never leave me.
forever yours,
valerie joy pendergast
i dreamt of you last night as i often do. myself and others stumbled upon your wedding in a most accidental fashion. there was a tradition that the bride and groom must greet all of their guests before the ceremony. you were, of course, shocked by my random appearance at such an occasion. i watched longingly as you tightly hugged your many friends and family members. before i knew it, the crowd had mashed us together in a most inevitable fashion. we embraced. it was warm and exhilarating. you slowly locked your baby blues on mine, and i watched as you cautiously inched your lips closer and closer. backing away out of instinct, every dream i've had of those lips, waking or in sleep, flashed through my head. i stood paralyzed by the shock of your actions, and dumbfounded by the confusion of my reaction. crashing your joyous nuptial was far from my intention, and i refused to play the role of "home-wrecker." as soon as you turned to join your bride, a tidal wave of regret washed over me.
you could have been mine, even if only for the brief moment in which a kiss belongs. the world would have stopped, my heart would have stopped.
it took three of my companions to pull me out of the aisle after the ceremony had begun. both you and your bride were painted in black and white. she wore red. nothing of this event made sense to me. it looked as if you were having a costume party. (much like the intentions we had for our own celebration many years ago.) i flailed my limbs with disregard. i yelled. i screamed. i cried in desperation. why had i not accepted my one and only chance to become the evening sky? to envelop the world in our most perfect shade of blue. to be home.
there was a balcony on which i sat with varying company. the view was of the tops of trees, and i could hear the muffled noises coming from inside. within the trees, i could see the birds hoping from branch to branch, and i watched as the sun set and the sky gently transformed from one blue to the next. gradually, i become lost in my thoughts, but began to notice how much larger each bird had grown. before i knew it, the birds were enormous! i frantically directed all attention to the tree tops. there was a horse balancing among the leaves! there was a dinosaur, there was a bull, and a giant goat! how had these creatures come to find themselves grazing among the birds?! we all stared wide-eyed in utter disbelief.
as we stood motionless, our gaze was instantly directed to a giant, smoky figure looming above us. he began swinging his arms wildly, smashing his fists into the side of the building, crushing bricks and bodies simultaneously. panicked screams filled my ears, and the guests began trampling each other in fear. i ran and jumped as nimbly as i could in an attempt to avoid the blows of this monster and of my fellow humans. darting through the halls of what now seemed to be a massive piece of architecture, i caught a glimpse of a door that seemed to promise escape.
i stood in the dark, my breath heavy with terror. quickly i realized that i was not alone in this warm, damp corridor. a shaky hand grasped mine. instantly i recognized the shape of your fingers, and then the smell from your rapidly breathing lungs. you pressed your lips against mine and lifted my face with your hands.
the world stopped! my heart stopped!
i woke up.
disappointed.
these images will not leave my thoughts. these scents will not escape my nose. my senses have been overwhelmed since i awoke this morning.
some things will never leave me.
forever yours,
valerie joy pendergast