Diabetes and the Baby-Sitters Club...
So it would seem that I haven't really updated in a while. Hmmm. Well, I can't sleep, so I might as well do that now.
That is not to say, of course, that I have TRIED to sleep. I don't like sleeping at night, or alone. When I sleep, there's no one to protect me should anything go wrong. I don't exactly know why I think this, but it's safe to say that that's a pretty good reason why I don't like to sleep at night. There's also the constant nightmare thing, but at least that's not real. And I have my meds to blame for that.
So Steven and I went to a bunch of used bookstores on Friday. It was actually pretty fun. We tried to find Copper Dragon books in Sunnyvale, which was in a strange unlit building and was incredibly creepy (so we said screw that). The Sunnyvale Public library was actually good, because I found Friends Forever Super Special #1 and Little Sister #41 for a dollar each. Suhweet. (Did I mention--or NEED to-- that this is my neverending quest to collect all the Baby-sitters Club books?) Then, we hit up this used book place on Murphy ave, which had a slim selection... and then we went to Alice Lee Books, on Mary, which was truly awesome. I got 21 BSC books, all of which I'd never read! Yyyyes! Thank you, Steven, for helping me buy them all, btw. =)
So I've been doing nothing but reading BSC books lately. Ha! It's amazing how much I like reading when reading doesn't require ANY work on my part. Seriously... I don't have to analyze anything, look up any words... ohhh it's beautiful. I know that everyone thinks that BSC books are, well, not the most appropriate thing for someone who's almost 21 to be reading, but I'm having fun, so shut up. Seriously... it's the weirdest thing, but I totally feel like I'm 9 again. And hey, I guess reading is better than eating, which is my other favorite pastime.
Speaking of which, I've lost three pounds since I began this diet thing. I guess three isn't THAT impressive, but every little bit helps, right? Of course, today I had an Oreo milkshake, a burger and onion rings at Johnny Rocket's (yum!!), a huge glass of root beer, and 12 mini KitKat bars... uh... yeah. Whoops. But other than that, I've been doing really well. I'm avoiding most sodas (except for diet... I gotta say, as much as I loathe diet soda and Dr. Pepper, that vanilla cherry diet Dr. stuff isn't half bad), and trying to drink more natural juices. I'm also eating smaller portions and avoiding sugary stuff for the most part... and trying to be really careful about fast food/eating out choices. (Like, I got a chicken BLT at Subway instead of a burger at Jack in the Box.)
What I'm trying to do is not only lose this excess weight and get in shape, but I want to establish better eating habits so I don't have health problems later in life. I'm already struggling with breathing when I excersize (DEFINITELY out of shape), and my skin has never been worse. I break out ALL the time because of all the junk I eat. Come to think of it, since Lent started, I haven't had any zits on my face. Score. The main reason, though, is not even for the cute bathing suits or size 12s I want to be able to fit in... I'm thinking of myself as a diabetic now, so it helps to avoid the sugar. I mean... basically, if I don't change my eating habits ASAP, I will become diabetic... like, 100% chance. I'm "pre-diabetic", which is the term my doctor used... yeah. Especially since my dad is a type II diabetic, I DON'T want it to happen to me. I mean, as much as the negative Four part of me wants to be special in yet another way, I would absolutely die if I couldn't eat sugary foods. And my feet and eyesight are bad enough as it is.
That's another thing, actually... this is going to be really weird-sounding, but reading all these BSC books is actually helping me. For those of you who read the series, you know that Stacey is the token diabetic one... and I recently got Stacey's Emergency, which details what happened when she started messing with her diet and eating a lot of sugary stuff and wound up in the hospital. Since I'm not a brittle diabetic (and furthermore, I'd be type II, not type I), it's not THAT serious... but still, diabetes is a serious health problem. I don't want to have to check my blood sugar all the time. I don't want to have to manage insulin. I don't want to be stuck with yucky diet soda for the rest of my life.
Well, anyway... I'm sort of hungry right now, which means I'm going to brush my teeth and go to bed. My body is trying to trick me into thinking I'm having a hypoglycemic reaction, when really, I've been lying in bed for the last several hours reading. Uhhh yeah. And I know I'm being lazy, but you know what? It's freaking spring break. I DESERVE some time off to just relax and chill the hell out. Okay?
BTW, anyone who thinks this entry should be lj-cut can bite me.
Oh, and BTW2, if any of you out there have BSC books (particularly more recent ones) you want to get rid of for free/cheap, please donate them this way. I promise I'll give them a good home. Hehe
That is not to say, of course, that I have TRIED to sleep. I don't like sleeping at night, or alone. When I sleep, there's no one to protect me should anything go wrong. I don't exactly know why I think this, but it's safe to say that that's a pretty good reason why I don't like to sleep at night. There's also the constant nightmare thing, but at least that's not real. And I have my meds to blame for that.
So Steven and I went to a bunch of used bookstores on Friday. It was actually pretty fun. We tried to find Copper Dragon books in Sunnyvale, which was in a strange unlit building and was incredibly creepy (so we said screw that). The Sunnyvale Public library was actually good, because I found Friends Forever Super Special #1 and Little Sister #41 for a dollar each. Suhweet. (Did I mention--or NEED to-- that this is my neverending quest to collect all the Baby-sitters Club books?) Then, we hit up this used book place on Murphy ave, which had a slim selection... and then we went to Alice Lee Books, on Mary, which was truly awesome. I got 21 BSC books, all of which I'd never read! Yyyyes! Thank you, Steven, for helping me buy them all, btw. =)
So I've been doing nothing but reading BSC books lately. Ha! It's amazing how much I like reading when reading doesn't require ANY work on my part. Seriously... I don't have to analyze anything, look up any words... ohhh it's beautiful. I know that everyone thinks that BSC books are, well, not the most appropriate thing for someone who's almost 21 to be reading, but I'm having fun, so shut up. Seriously... it's the weirdest thing, but I totally feel like I'm 9 again. And hey, I guess reading is better than eating, which is my other favorite pastime.
Speaking of which, I've lost three pounds since I began this diet thing. I guess three isn't THAT impressive, but every little bit helps, right? Of course, today I had an Oreo milkshake, a burger and onion rings at Johnny Rocket's (yum!!), a huge glass of root beer, and 12 mini KitKat bars... uh... yeah. Whoops. But other than that, I've been doing really well. I'm avoiding most sodas (except for diet... I gotta say, as much as I loathe diet soda and Dr. Pepper, that vanilla cherry diet Dr. stuff isn't half bad), and trying to drink more natural juices. I'm also eating smaller portions and avoiding sugary stuff for the most part... and trying to be really careful about fast food/eating out choices. (Like, I got a chicken BLT at Subway instead of a burger at Jack in the Box.)
What I'm trying to do is not only lose this excess weight and get in shape, but I want to establish better eating habits so I don't have health problems later in life. I'm already struggling with breathing when I excersize (DEFINITELY out of shape), and my skin has never been worse. I break out ALL the time because of all the junk I eat. Come to think of it, since Lent started, I haven't had any zits on my face. Score. The main reason, though, is not even for the cute bathing suits or size 12s I want to be able to fit in... I'm thinking of myself as a diabetic now, so it helps to avoid the sugar. I mean... basically, if I don't change my eating habits ASAP, I will become diabetic... like, 100% chance. I'm "pre-diabetic", which is the term my doctor used... yeah. Especially since my dad is a type II diabetic, I DON'T want it to happen to me. I mean, as much as the negative Four part of me wants to be special in yet another way, I would absolutely die if I couldn't eat sugary foods. And my feet and eyesight are bad enough as it is.
That's another thing, actually... this is going to be really weird-sounding, but reading all these BSC books is actually helping me. For those of you who read the series, you know that Stacey is the token diabetic one... and I recently got Stacey's Emergency, which details what happened when she started messing with her diet and eating a lot of sugary stuff and wound up in the hospital. Since I'm not a brittle diabetic (and furthermore, I'd be type II, not type I), it's not THAT serious... but still, diabetes is a serious health problem. I don't want to have to check my blood sugar all the time. I don't want to have to manage insulin. I don't want to be stuck with yucky diet soda for the rest of my life.
Well, anyway... I'm sort of hungry right now, which means I'm going to brush my teeth and go to bed. My body is trying to trick me into thinking I'm having a hypoglycemic reaction, when really, I've been lying in bed for the last several hours reading. Uhhh yeah. And I know I'm being lazy, but you know what? It's freaking spring break. I DESERVE some time off to just relax and chill the hell out. Okay?
BTW, anyone who thinks this entry should be lj-cut can bite me.
Oh, and BTW2, if any of you out there have BSC books (particularly more recent ones) you want to get rid of for free/cheap, please donate them this way. I promise I'll give them a good home. Hehe