fustrated
Ok, right when I thought that things couldnt get any better.... they just all fall right out of place. I HATE DOCTORS, AND CHECK UP'S AND SHIT LIKE THAT. I have to have suguery AGAIN. Maybe if they looked at everything right the first time, I wouldnt have to do it again. I didn't like it the first time, so what the hell makes them think that I am going to like it again. Most things I could easily say, SHIT HAPPENS, OR I DONT REALLY CARE.... but this is not one of those things. I can't do shit for like ANOTHER 4 months, which will make it 8 months of me being a lazy ass. Thats because I just started to go out and run 3 miles. I was feeling so good.... went and ran my route on Sunday, jumped in the pool and worked out in there.... did the same thing this morning. I can't do that. That was such a tease. It was like... look what you could be doing... now I'm just gunna turn into a freakin couch potato again, and sit on my ass and eat all the time and gain like 10 lbs again. If it was one of those I DONT CARE things, that would be cool, but I CANT FREAKIN WORK OUT!!! This is the ONLY thing that can ruin my mood. I don't like to be fustrated.... its too stressfull.