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Well, today I just went to the mall with my mom and bought some shirts, some manacure stuff, and some sweat pants or capris, what ever you want to call them, because I need to wear something comfortable for my surguery tomorrow. After that, we went to eat at my second favorite place, Joe's Crab Shadck!
Other than that, I have realised so many things. Everything that I am going through, all these mixed feelings, new feelings, weird feelings, and ESPECIALLY uncomfortable feelingsare nothing that I can escape, although I wish I could. All I have to do is deal with them, yet it is so hard having to. I don't think that anyone could even begin to understand the feelings I hold inside, it's so hard to let them out. I just wish that sometimes, there could be one person I could talk to that dosent judge me or give me their opposite veiws on mine. One person in the world that wouldnt thing badly of me, or think that I am flat out going crazy. Someone who appriciates me for who I am, not what I look like, what I wear, what I do, or who I hang out with, but appriciate me for being me. The only people like that are my good friends, the ones that I hang out with all the time. Cassidy, Allie, and Victoria. I don't care what anyone says, they are my TRUE FRIENDS. The ones that have stuck by me, even through my moods... they know what I am talking about. The times that I have gone through when I was grouchy and took it out on them for about a month or two. They all understand. But what my point is, there are a handfull of people out there that are not like them, some that are close, one that WAS close, and some that I no longer talk to, that I wish could be just like that.
I guess it's all a part of growing up, I can't change them, just be there for them, even if they arent there for me. I wish everyone knew, that if they NEEDED me for ANYTHING, regardless of my past with them, I would be there for them in a heartbeat. I am not one to judge, hold grudges, or hate anyone. My arms are open to anyone that needs someone. I find the posative in everyone, and block out what ever everyone thinks their negatives may be. Thats the way they were made, and I wouldnt want anyone to change.
A friend in need is a friend indeed!!!
Other than that, I have realised so many things. Everything that I am going through, all these mixed feelings, new feelings, weird feelings, and ESPECIALLY uncomfortable feelingsare nothing that I can escape, although I wish I could. All I have to do is deal with them, yet it is so hard having to. I don't think that anyone could even begin to understand the feelings I hold inside, it's so hard to let them out. I just wish that sometimes, there could be one person I could talk to that dosent judge me or give me their opposite veiws on mine. One person in the world that wouldnt thing badly of me, or think that I am flat out going crazy. Someone who appriciates me for who I am, not what I look like, what I wear, what I do, or who I hang out with, but appriciate me for being me. The only people like that are my good friends, the ones that I hang out with all the time. Cassidy, Allie, and Victoria. I don't care what anyone says, they are my TRUE FRIENDS. The ones that have stuck by me, even through my moods... they know what I am talking about. The times that I have gone through when I was grouchy and took it out on them for about a month or two. They all understand. But what my point is, there are a handfull of people out there that are not like them, some that are close, one that WAS close, and some that I no longer talk to, that I wish could be just like that.
I guess it's all a part of growing up, I can't change them, just be there for them, even if they arent there for me. I wish everyone knew, that if they NEEDED me for ANYTHING, regardless of my past with them, I would be there for them in a heartbeat. I am not one to judge, hold grudges, or hate anyone. My arms are open to anyone that needs someone. I find the posative in everyone, and block out what ever everyone thinks their negatives may be. Thats the way they were made, and I wouldnt want anyone to change.
A friend in need is a friend indeed!!!