May 09, 2009 00:04
I've just put the finishing touches on my plans for the summer, but they are subject to change (because I'm like that )
1. Justin's car show/my mom's birthday on June 5th
2. My Cousin's wedding in Madison/ my little sisters grad party
3. The 4th of July with Justin at my cabin in Cumberland WI (more on that)
4. MAYBE the Basilica Block Party (REALLY hoping I can do that)
5. MAYBE travel down to Youngstown to visit Michelle (More on that)
Elaboration on 3. Essentially I am crazy about him. No seriously, for the first three months when I was working with him I didn't know his name so I referred to him as "The Hot Guy in Polo" or just "Hot Guy" However, I've told him about my feelings towards him (Not about calling him "Hot Guy" that would be weird) and as of three months ago he said that he just wanted to be friends. Everyone tells me that he likes me and I'm really hoping that's the case. He's a very shy person and mildly to moderatly awkward lol. Right now I believe everyone else, and not just because I'm crazy about the man, but because I feel it. And I'm like 99.99 percent positive that he does too, but he's such a shy person that he's not sure about how he feels. SOOO...that being said. I'm really really hoping that he gets his shit together before we go up to the cabin because it would be wonderful to finally be able to bring a boyfriend up there for once.
Elaboration on 5. I'm really not sure if I will travel down to Youngstown. Rick wants me to come down. He says that he misses me, and by that I mean he says he misses my company and my personality. Honestly, after a year of hating his guts I kind of would like to just sit down as two friends and hang out for once. We equally fucked up the relationshit--granted he did a lot more than me. But it wasn't completely his fault. Also. I feel bad for having Michelle always coming up here and me never going down there--I've made plans to go down there in the past but I've always backed out at the last minute because I just didn't either have the finical means to do it or I just couldn't emotionally bring myself to go there. However keeping what I said earlier in mind about Rick, I feel that maybe now I can finally go down there and hang out with the people who took me in during those hard times and finally repay them. So I'm thinking about it. It depends on how much money I have