I don't know

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It takes a lot to change a life
And even more to have opinions on things.
I can't ever be happy with the way things seem to be going.
I can't turn on the TV becuase it makes me sick
So many unwanted memories.

I want to be happy.
I want to experience it.
Live it.
Be it.
I can't think of anything better to ask for.

If dieing is the end of everything,
I want to die knowing I did it for someone.
I want to make a difference in someones life.
To be with someone in someway that's somehow higher and deeper than words.
Big aspariations for me.

The only thing is I won't be able to do it here.
This place has a horrible effect on my personality.
It's shaped me in someway.
Maybe it's the people I hang out with.
The things I do.
The things I see.

I just need to get away. Far away.
Away from you. Away from him.
Forever.

There is a light at the end of the tunnel.
We are all racing foward and trying to go though it.
But we can't all fit at once.
So people have to make the decision.

I have to leave you.
Yes, I love you.
And I can't imagine letting our moments together go..
But I will. I am.

I'm no more to you than you are to me.
And I'm dead.