I don't want to grow up.
I was really sick last Thursday and Friday, but I pushed myself to go to work...even though I have sick days that I CAN use...I just feel so guilty using them. So I pushed myself past my limit, and I felt wretched on Saturday and part of Sunday. But I thought I got enough rest and I was ready to go. I woke up at 5am this morning with a sore throat. I thought that I should just go to work anyway...then for the next 2 hours I was tossing and turning, deciding if it was rude to go in when I was sick, because I might make my co-workers sick, or if it was rude to call in sick, because I should just suck it up and they might be short staffed, etc., etc. So I just called in because if I went to work and pushed myself again, I would make myself even more sick.
I slept lots and was lying on the couch all day...I feel kind of gross. I could not shake this dumb guilty feeling all day...I feel like I'm so not ready to be a "professional." Even though I know I am at the same time. It's hard to explain.
I just feel isolated here in a town where I know ONE person...and she is moving in 2 weeks to Barrie!
It's only mid-October, and sometimes I wonder how I'll make it through the year??
I slept lots and was lying on the couch all day...I feel kind of gross. I could not shake this dumb guilty feeling all day...I feel like I'm so not ready to be a "professional." Even though I know I am at the same time. It's hard to explain.
I just feel isolated here in a town where I know ONE person...and she is moving in 2 weeks to Barrie!
It's only mid-October, and sometimes I wonder how I'll make it through the year??