Mar 20, 2006 14:48
I don't think that all men are liars...generalizing has gotten a lot of people in trouble throughout history...and I am not one to generalize...so I will just have to say that a lot of people that I have encountered in my relationship and dating life are LIARS!!!
What compells people to lie? Most are trying to hide something, others tend to be embarassed about their real truths...and the rest just do it so much throughout their normal day to day life that it has become the norm. I really feel that with the ending of my most recent relationship that I was lied to through the majority of its lasting.
-I want to be with you for a really long time, almost forever.
-I don't ever want to lose you.
-You are so amazing, wonderful, perfect, etc.
These are some of the many things that I have heard in the past five months that are now rolling around in my head masked as lies.
Why did he have to do it like this? I don't think I have ever dated someone who started out so gung-ho---calling me three and four times a day, showing up at my place of working, spending time together everyday, dates and gifts and gushy mushy crap----and then to just change it all. Just to decide one day, well, I think I might be getting too involved and am not acting correctly so I will just turn it off and not tell your FREAKING GIRLFRIEND you had a change of heart but you just start acting like a total and utter ass about everything and then leave all of the dirty work to ME to figure out what went wrong and then to make the decision in the end to ultimately take a break so the BOYFRIEND who wanted the relationship in the first place, weasled his way into MY heart, home and family, can figure out what the hell he wants with the relationship that HE STARTED!
I cannot beleive in the end after his persueing me that I have to ulitmately end it because he can't figure out what it is that he wants. Then throughout the whole process of this "taking a break" crap...he is sitting and sulking and trying to turn the tables on me again...don't make me feel guilty he says. BUT WAIT! You are...you screwed with my head and my heart and then expect me to sit by idle and not make you feel guilty for it! I guess he was right, I shouldn't make him feel guilty for breaking my heart, disrupting my life and making me question my worth and being as a human being. He's right...I was just so wrong. Then he even had the audacity to play the "its not you its me" game. You are so perfect, I am not...you are the most amazing girl and nicest girlfriend in the world, I am the one with the problem. Haven't heard that one before...EVER! What do people honestly think when they make such a statement as that one? So all in all...here I am...without him...the liar. The one who wanted to be with me and then CHANGED HIS MIND. Its easy to change your mind with some things...you know "I think I will have the chocolate cake instead of the cheesecake" "Instead of the blue car, I think I want the white one." "I would much rather go to the mall instead of the movies" But when it comes to PULLING someone in by such actions, leading them on as into a somewhat serious relationship...acting like things could never go astray and then "CHANGING YOUR MIND"....ITS GOSH DARN
WRONG WRONG WRONG
So here I am once again feeling like I can't trust people who come into my life and want to pursue me romantically because in the end all I think is....
HE IS A LIAR