fa la la la la what to do?
Christmas is almost here...yippeee! My family is away in Michigan this week and the house has been totally lonely, especially when the last few days before christmas are devoted to really getting into the holiday spirit! They get back later this week and I cannot wait to see my little sister who is home from college. I do have a sort of tiny teeny little dilema...and I have to make sure I make the right decision here because one person or the other is going to be a little put off or hurt because of it. Wow...this is the first time in my adult life I have ever had to make a decision like this, oh don't get me wrong this is the type of decision that is a good one. Well, my boyfriend has invited me over to his house...like home-home...for Christmas Eve to meet his family and spend time with them. But I am not sure when we are going to be coming back to my house. Never once in my life have I ever not been in my house early Christmas morning with the rest of my family ripping presents apart. I have always been there...I don't want to put my boyfriend in the position of having to drive me home over 2 hours just so I can wake up at 7 am and act like a little kid. Flip side, my mom is kinda viewing this as one of the last Christmas's like this that we are ever going to have...big on family stuff and sticking to tradition. She did though invite the boyfriend over for Christmas dinner which is huge and makes me happier than ever. We have never had someone over on the family dinner day...I know if I ask my mom what I should do she will tell me to be an adult and it is no big deal. But I know deep down it would break her heart if I am not there Christmas morning waking them up like I did when I was eight years old. So that's where I stand, I have no clue at all what to do. But I can say that it does feel nice to have a boyfriend want to include me in on his family so much and to be a part of what he has going on. He is just absolutely amazing and is not only turning out to be one of those boyfriends that you dream and dream about for all time, but he is also becoming my best friend. It is so absolutely cliche and cheesy but I can talk to him about anything at all and feel comfortable around him in any situation. I told him that he is my best bud and he just smiled at me...he knows. Not only is he there for me but he is interested in being around my family and being there for different things that we all having going on. As you can see, my family is the most important thing to me in the entire world and he knows that and cherishes it.
I wonder if young people who are embarking on the dating world have to experience some bad luck and encounter the freaks and assholes in order to be ready for the real thing when it comes? Maybe as a way to make sure that you don't take things for granted and that a person's generosity is a truly acquired characteristic that makes people so real and warm to be around and those jerks out there have to be encountered in order to know that know everyone in the world can not be trusted and for people who wear their heart's on their sleeves have to learn the hard way sometimes. I really think some days that I have had to learn the hard way and to know what heart ache is. Its hard when you have parents who have been together almost 25 years and dated for almost eight years before they were married. They were the lucky ones and most likely some of the few extreme cases...my sister has always had it easy too. Finding men who adore her and treat her like a princess no matter what. Her only heartache has come from having to move away from them...I have had men treat me like downright dirt and I have never really been able to understand why that has ever happened or how i could even find a person who could treat another like a toy and toss them aside when they got bored. But I can say that I am not bitter about it and you tend to forget many of those terrible, awful things when a nice and wonderful person comes along and treats you like you should be treated and I treat him like he should be treated.
Bottom line.
Things are good...really good. It is the best time of the year. I am healthy, happy, surrounded by the most wonderful family and have a wonderful job. I can truly count my blessings and good fortune this year. For a girl who had not a plan in her head the day she walked across the stage to get her college degree...to having a real job and is about to embark in the real world...I am happy.
I am just plain fricken happy.
I wonder if young people who are embarking on the dating world have to experience some bad luck and encounter the freaks and assholes in order to be ready for the real thing when it comes? Maybe as a way to make sure that you don't take things for granted and that a person's generosity is a truly acquired characteristic that makes people so real and warm to be around and those jerks out there have to be encountered in order to know that know everyone in the world can not be trusted and for people who wear their heart's on their sleeves have to learn the hard way sometimes. I really think some days that I have had to learn the hard way and to know what heart ache is. Its hard when you have parents who have been together almost 25 years and dated for almost eight years before they were married. They were the lucky ones and most likely some of the few extreme cases...my sister has always had it easy too. Finding men who adore her and treat her like a princess no matter what. Her only heartache has come from having to move away from them...I have had men treat me like downright dirt and I have never really been able to understand why that has ever happened or how i could even find a person who could treat another like a toy and toss them aside when they got bored. But I can say that I am not bitter about it and you tend to forget many of those terrible, awful things when a nice and wonderful person comes along and treats you like you should be treated and I treat him like he should be treated.
Bottom line.
Things are good...really good. It is the best time of the year. I am healthy, happy, surrounded by the most wonderful family and have a wonderful job. I can truly count my blessings and good fortune this year. For a girl who had not a plan in her head the day she walked across the stage to get her college degree...to having a real job and is about to embark in the real world...I am happy.
I am just plain fricken happy.