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Here I am. There is the sun. In two hours I will get tired and sleep until about 12. There's no use fighting with myself. I lose. I accept it. I need a night time job to keep myself occupied. I'm very stressed out right now. This is my top 10 stressed out reasons list: (i know that was a really dumb way to say that, but I don't feel like coming up with something better)
1. Money. Work sucks lately and I'm having serious money issues and I know it's because of my horrible spending habits.
2. Dad. I haven't actually spoken to him in six months and now I've put it off for so long that I don't even know what to say.
3. Sleep. I think about how I can't sleep right and then it just gets even worse.
4. Social anxiety. I don't why it comes and goes, but it does. I can walk into a room of my 5 favorite people and feel so awkward. That's stupid.
5. Boys. Men. Whatever. I don't want one right now, but I can't seem to get away from them or my needy attachment problem. I feel like I'm being attacked almost. Happy Summertime. No good.
6. Math. I have the official theory now and it's really intimidating. I can't leave it anywhere and I am to tell no one what it's about. He said people might try to follow me.
7. Skin. It's getting worse and then I freak out even more because I can't stop obsessing over it and it gets worse and worse and worse.
8. Lazy. I feel so good when I work out a lot and I can't bring myself to do it. I really need to at least so I can feel healthy.
9. God. I wish I could just acccept religion or something, but I really never will. I'm too much of a thinker to just accept anything. This has been on my mind a lot lately.
10. Tommy. He's moving out next month. My baby brother got himself into some trouble so now he is leaving and then its just me and steve. I need out because I refuse to be the last one stuck with her. That gives me two years tops.
That's what I've got off the top of my head. My life isn't bad. I just don't know what to make of it sometimes. I get worked up over silly things. Someday it will all work itself out. I'm a good person. I know I am. There's no reason for it not to be okay.
1. Money. Work sucks lately and I'm having serious money issues and I know it's because of my horrible spending habits.
2. Dad. I haven't actually spoken to him in six months and now I've put it off for so long that I don't even know what to say.
3. Sleep. I think about how I can't sleep right and then it just gets even worse.
4. Social anxiety. I don't why it comes and goes, but it does. I can walk into a room of my 5 favorite people and feel so awkward. That's stupid.
5. Boys. Men. Whatever. I don't want one right now, but I can't seem to get away from them or my needy attachment problem. I feel like I'm being attacked almost. Happy Summertime. No good.
6. Math. I have the official theory now and it's really intimidating. I can't leave it anywhere and I am to tell no one what it's about. He said people might try to follow me.
7. Skin. It's getting worse and then I freak out even more because I can't stop obsessing over it and it gets worse and worse and worse.
8. Lazy. I feel so good when I work out a lot and I can't bring myself to do it. I really need to at least so I can feel healthy.
9. God. I wish I could just acccept religion or something, but I really never will. I'm too much of a thinker to just accept anything. This has been on my mind a lot lately.
10. Tommy. He's moving out next month. My baby brother got himself into some trouble so now he is leaving and then its just me and steve. I need out because I refuse to be the last one stuck with her. That gives me two years tops.
That's what I've got off the top of my head. My life isn't bad. I just don't know what to make of it sometimes. I get worked up over silly things. Someday it will all work itself out. I'm a good person. I know I am. There's no reason for it not to be okay.