Happy Thanksgiving!
hey guy whats up?
Ok woah...does going back home freak anyone else out? I was getting so comfortable in college, getting used to life in a dorm with my roommate, trying to figure out an eating pattern cuz i HATE the dining halls, trying to do homework....and now I'm back home and everythings like high school again. It hurts so much sleeping in the bed I used to cuddle with Sam in. And his pictures are up in my room, and everything just reminds me of him. And I feel like I'm with him, like I'm supposed to be with him. God, I was doing so well emotionally, and now I'm back to this. Walking the same old streets on which I used to walk with him, going to the same movie theater, going to the same cafes....doing the same old routine, but this time without him. And there's no way I can get him back. When will I get over this? ever? The tears still come so easily.
Everything reminds me of him, it's impossible to deal with. I feel like I'm in high school again, but on Sunday I'll go back to my life in college, it's all so bizarre. You know what, college does rock...it's awesome. It's a totally different life which I'm becoming comfortable with. It's so hard to be home, just because of the memories. But I do miss my Brearley girls so damn much. I love being back home, it's just hard to be here because it reminds me of the time when I had Sam, and it reminds me of the good times I've had. Ok well enough of this, break ups are so fucking hard. I can't believe what I did...but I can't keep punishing myself. Well I cant wait til friday and saturday night when I get to see my girls!
xoxo
Val
Ok woah...does going back home freak anyone else out? I was getting so comfortable in college, getting used to life in a dorm with my roommate, trying to figure out an eating pattern cuz i HATE the dining halls, trying to do homework....and now I'm back home and everythings like high school again. It hurts so much sleeping in the bed I used to cuddle with Sam in. And his pictures are up in my room, and everything just reminds me of him. And I feel like I'm with him, like I'm supposed to be with him. God, I was doing so well emotionally, and now I'm back to this. Walking the same old streets on which I used to walk with him, going to the same movie theater, going to the same cafes....doing the same old routine, but this time without him. And there's no way I can get him back. When will I get over this? ever? The tears still come so easily.
Everything reminds me of him, it's impossible to deal with. I feel like I'm in high school again, but on Sunday I'll go back to my life in college, it's all so bizarre. You know what, college does rock...it's awesome. It's a totally different life which I'm becoming comfortable with. It's so hard to be home, just because of the memories. But I do miss my Brearley girls so damn much. I love being back home, it's just hard to be here because it reminds me of the time when I had Sam, and it reminds me of the good times I've had. Ok well enough of this, break ups are so fucking hard. I can't believe what I did...but I can't keep punishing myself. Well I cant wait til friday and saturday night when I get to see my girls!
xoxo
Val