Why do these tears come at night...
I am so FUCKING out of it these days...like I swear I'm still burnt out from Junior Year, but I feel like stoned or something, like nothing phases me, I feel so neutral about everything. I'm never get EXTREMELY happy or EXTREMELY upset anymore. This past weekend was awesome and I should've been having so much fun, but everything felt so surreal. Free tequila shots at Pablo's, free beer at some Columbia Frat, girls who rock my world, some random guys...that all would normally be so fun, but I am SO not normal. So what the hell is wrong with me??
I think I'm depressed...DAMMIT, it sucks being depressed, I think I need freedom because I'm so not content with my situation now. I can't wait until college, I need to get out of here and I need to start all over again. I'm trying to fix what's wrong now...fix my relationships, my life, my wardrobe, haha. I'm just damn insecure, that's it, INSECURE. Gosh, I'm a mess and I can't concentrate. I can't sleep either, I always seem to wake up at 7 AM even though I don't have to be up for another 4 hours. Well I never seem to make much sense, and I'm in a "I could care less" mood. So I just wanted to get that out there, I'm insecure, I need friends who I can count on and who are open with me and everything. I haven't been the greatest friend in the past, but now I can put time and energy into making these friendships work, I just wish my parents would be more lenient. hehe, yay so pyrogenicity helped me learn how to post these pix...and it's sorta random that i'm postin em now but whatever
Taline & Me (Golden Gate Bridge in the back)
Me & Alice...aww
Charlie's Angels?! haha...Me, Taline, & Allison
By the way, I farted and it smelled like the corona I had last night...coincidence? I think not
xoxo
Val
She cried herself to sleep but she don't dare She wants to be a model she wants to hear she's beautiful
I think I'm depressed...DAMMIT, it sucks being depressed, I think I need freedom because I'm so not content with my situation now. I can't wait until college, I need to get out of here and I need to start all over again. I'm trying to fix what's wrong now...fix my relationships, my life, my wardrobe, haha. I'm just damn insecure, that's it, INSECURE. Gosh, I'm a mess and I can't concentrate. I can't sleep either, I always seem to wake up at 7 AM even though I don't have to be up for another 4 hours. Well I never seem to make much sense, and I'm in a "I could care less" mood. So I just wanted to get that out there, I'm insecure, I need friends who I can count on and who are open with me and everything. I haven't been the greatest friend in the past, but now I can put time and energy into making these friendships work, I just wish my parents would be more lenient. hehe, yay so pyrogenicity helped me learn how to post these pix...and it's sorta random that i'm postin em now but whatever
Taline & Me (Golden Gate Bridge in the back)
Me & Alice...aww
Charlie's Angels?! haha...Me, Taline, & Allison
By the way, I farted and it smelled like the corona I had last night...coincidence? I think not
xoxo
Val
She cried herself to sleep but she don't dare She wants to be a model she wants to hear she's beautiful