September 11, revisited
Hey you, whats up? I was so distraught today during an assembly I had in school and all of my thoughts and emotions just took over my head and I started crying. I wish I had written down those emotions sooner but here is an attempt and I'm sure i was more articulate in my thoughts today:
So I woke up today and Z100 was being all somber because it was exactly a year ago that those plane crashes happened. Instead of wanting to turn off the radio I really wanted to hear them discuss the situation at present and the effects of the past. If you asked me a year ago about how I was feeling or what I thought about the tragedy I would'nt have known how to act. I felt like everyone who didn't live in NYC was trying to get something out of me just because I lived in Manhattan where it happened but I felt like I was in the same boat as they were. No harm came to my family and friends because of 9/11. I visited Ground Zero this summer and it was sad and something was definately missing but I felt detached from it still. But now that I think about it, I really was affected and it's taken this revisit to 9/11 to let those tears and emotions out. During the assembly today I couldn't stop those tears from falling. I didn't know why I was crying, nothing happened to me personally. But we had moments of silents at the times that the two planes crashed and it was just so horrible. I was thinking back to the same exact time a year ago and what I was doing and what I was feeling. I think I was just too shocked to fully grasp the extent of the damage. Innocent people were just going to work at the towers, thinking it was just another ordinary day. Now that I think about it, I'm not too detached from the damage. I remember the smoke coming from downtown and the horrible headache I got. I went home and it was so nice seeing my parents, sitting in front of the TV. I went out to Tastis w/my friends like nothing had happened but the city streets were surreal. The streets seemed empty, like a movie set, occasionaly there were firestrucks and ambulances racing down or groups of people, but we were all shocked. Then that night and the next and a while after that we had candle light vigils and I went to the firehouse with my parents to show support. There was something so nice in the unity I felt in my neighborhood towards the tragedy.
So all in all this entry sucked cuz I definately didnt convey my ideas but basically i dont feel so detached now and everything was very real and all I can do now is thank God that no one I knew was hurt and to remind everyone I love them everyday because we have to live life day by day.
*hugsies* & *kissies*
Valsies
So I woke up today and Z100 was being all somber because it was exactly a year ago that those plane crashes happened. Instead of wanting to turn off the radio I really wanted to hear them discuss the situation at present and the effects of the past. If you asked me a year ago about how I was feeling or what I thought about the tragedy I would'nt have known how to act. I felt like everyone who didn't live in NYC was trying to get something out of me just because I lived in Manhattan where it happened but I felt like I was in the same boat as they were. No harm came to my family and friends because of 9/11. I visited Ground Zero this summer and it was sad and something was definately missing but I felt detached from it still. But now that I think about it, I really was affected and it's taken this revisit to 9/11 to let those tears and emotions out. During the assembly today I couldn't stop those tears from falling. I didn't know why I was crying, nothing happened to me personally. But we had moments of silents at the times that the two planes crashed and it was just so horrible. I was thinking back to the same exact time a year ago and what I was doing and what I was feeling. I think I was just too shocked to fully grasp the extent of the damage. Innocent people were just going to work at the towers, thinking it was just another ordinary day. Now that I think about it, I'm not too detached from the damage. I remember the smoke coming from downtown and the horrible headache I got. I went home and it was so nice seeing my parents, sitting in front of the TV. I went out to Tastis w/my friends like nothing had happened but the city streets were surreal. The streets seemed empty, like a movie set, occasionaly there were firestrucks and ambulances racing down or groups of people, but we were all shocked. Then that night and the next and a while after that we had candle light vigils and I went to the firehouse with my parents to show support. There was something so nice in the unity I felt in my neighborhood towards the tragedy.
So all in all this entry sucked cuz I definately didnt convey my ideas but basically i dont feel so detached now and everything was very real and all I can do now is thank God that no one I knew was hurt and to remind everyone I love them everyday because we have to live life day by day.
*hugsies* & *kissies*
Valsies