Winter is here
Life is good as I try not to wipe my nose with the back of my hand. Work has been definitely busy which has kept me glued on priorities and not trying to cheat online with checking facebook or read newspapers for the latest local information. And the weather? It's finally cold here and my attempt at keeping basil and peppers alive in the greenhouse has finally stopped. I just checked and they were black. The pepper plant was still somewhat green, but most likely dead. The winter plant bed? Messed up since it would seem one abiding Dude took liberties and nestled in last night. You see I had set up a tent like cold frame by utilizing a hinged willow trellis and draping clear plastic over the top. Definitely made for a nice cozy bed for a rainy night. Ahem...Dude is definitely not stupid, but my seeds? Looks like I need to re-rake the furrow and replant carrots, lettuce, and spinach. It's not like he doesn't have a dog house or welcome indoors. Grr!
M is at work and I'm playing on my new (first) laptop. I caved on Black Friday and made the purchase. I can't believe how quick it is as my old tower cranks and grunts to run. Even with the bottom of the line wireless service (cheaper than dial-up!) I feel that it's as fast as my work DSL server. I do not want to jinx anything, but it's simply amazing.
We haven't decorated anything, but I feel like all my shopping is done for Christmas. I just need to wrap, which is definitely not my strong suit. I used to love it, but these days I have to seriously make time. It should be fun, it used to be! Maybe it's the 4 dogs that run rampant through the house or something. I don't know. I should get to cutting out my latest shirt pattern and sew on this cold rainy day, but I'm too busy playing and well, logging into my journal. It's been too long anyway.
I feel like I've turned into that girl that I never could envision myself to be. The one that shacks up and forgets there's an outside life. I find myself settling in early at night and not remembering the times of friends outside of a relationship. I feel distant from others and yet not. Some have distanced themselves from me since they have never known me 'in' a relationship so they don't want to barge in and then others? They are the same as ever, but in another case I have friends calling me more than the other way around. Am I missed? It sure feels that way. Then you have the couples that are reaching out more to include you in on their crowd or dinners. It's quite lovely really. I could not hardly remember the last time I was invited to a friends for a nice sit down meal. I used to put them on for my friends, but rarely invited to others unless it was a stepping point to going out later. Much different meal those. Hahaha.
I'm definitely not complaining, but also realizing not to forget who I am in the process or those that are dear to me. My sisters definitely don't let me forget that and well, the friends who will be your friend even on your dying bed. Some that I deeply care about that are treading lightly are just getting used to me in a relationship and I totally get that, but I remind I'm still me and don't forget that.
Last week I bought a load of dirt to refill planters (so much cheaper than by the bag at the nursery!!) and unloaded it by myself. M was upset that I didn't wait until he got home to help me. It was part of my defiance that I also don't want to forget that I can still do things on my own. Yes, it's easy to have help and yet it's also to easy to take for granted that help. Just a reminder that I can still do things on my own although I don't want to always be like that. My safety net I guess. A little bit of defiance.
And my latest EBay purchase? The wrong item was shipped. I'm a little irate...back to being me again. This is a first. Hmmm.
M is at work and I'm playing on my new (first) laptop. I caved on Black Friday and made the purchase. I can't believe how quick it is as my old tower cranks and grunts to run. Even with the bottom of the line wireless service (cheaper than dial-up!) I feel that it's as fast as my work DSL server. I do not want to jinx anything, but it's simply amazing.
We haven't decorated anything, but I feel like all my shopping is done for Christmas. I just need to wrap, which is definitely not my strong suit. I used to love it, but these days I have to seriously make time. It should be fun, it used to be! Maybe it's the 4 dogs that run rampant through the house or something. I don't know. I should get to cutting out my latest shirt pattern and sew on this cold rainy day, but I'm too busy playing and well, logging into my journal. It's been too long anyway.
I feel like I've turned into that girl that I never could envision myself to be. The one that shacks up and forgets there's an outside life. I find myself settling in early at night and not remembering the times of friends outside of a relationship. I feel distant from others and yet not. Some have distanced themselves from me since they have never known me 'in' a relationship so they don't want to barge in and then others? They are the same as ever, but in another case I have friends calling me more than the other way around. Am I missed? It sure feels that way. Then you have the couples that are reaching out more to include you in on their crowd or dinners. It's quite lovely really. I could not hardly remember the last time I was invited to a friends for a nice sit down meal. I used to put them on for my friends, but rarely invited to others unless it was a stepping point to going out later. Much different meal those. Hahaha.
I'm definitely not complaining, but also realizing not to forget who I am in the process or those that are dear to me. My sisters definitely don't let me forget that and well, the friends who will be your friend even on your dying bed. Some that I deeply care about that are treading lightly are just getting used to me in a relationship and I totally get that, but I remind I'm still me and don't forget that.
Last week I bought a load of dirt to refill planters (so much cheaper than by the bag at the nursery!!) and unloaded it by myself. M was upset that I didn't wait until he got home to help me. It was part of my defiance that I also don't want to forget that I can still do things on my own. Yes, it's easy to have help and yet it's also to easy to take for granted that help. Just a reminder that I can still do things on my own although I don't want to always be like that. My safety net I guess. A little bit of defiance.
And my latest EBay purchase? The wrong item was shipped. I'm a little irate...back to being me again. This is a first. Hmmm.