An "Illusory" Language Part II
When I articulate my views, it doesn’t take long for me to become conscious of the fact that the words I choose in my speech hold a different meaning to me than to the person listening to me. The English language is so indirect, abused, and overused. We use words to express emotions that the particular word of our choosing was not intended to express. Just look at a thesaurus and you quickly come conclude that anything can mean just about anything. Or maybe that’s just me. Anyhow, the line between opposites becomes increasingly vague with every additional moment in my increasingly less important existence, every day. I feel as though I am being held prisoner inside of my own mind; unable to convey the message to the outside world that I would like to convey. I feel as though some invisible hand in the depths of my conscience is silencing my thoughts. I am being told not to speak, and that if I do, I am not genuinely speaking. What I am saying is not comprehended in the manner that it was intended to be comprehended.