Oct 27, 2007 16:06
Psalm 119
Your Word Is a Lamp to My Feet
Aleph
"1Blessed are those whose way is blameless,
who walk in the law of the LORD!
2Blessed are those who keep his testimonies,
who seek him with their whole heart,
3who also do no wrong,
but walk in his ways!
4You have commanded your precepts
to be kept diligently.
5Oh that my ways may be steadfast
in keeping your statutes!
6Then I shall not be put to shame,
having my eyes fixed on all your commandments.
7I will praise you with an upright heart,
when I learn your righteous rules.
8I will keep your statutes;
do not utterly forsake me!"
so i am trying to memorize this verse for my captain, aimee.
so this is not all of psalm 119... actually this psalm is 176 verses long. quite intimidating... to say the least. but i hope that with diligence and much praying to the Lord, that i will acquire this passage to memory.
i am truly horrible when it comes to memorization. i fail almost 100% of the time... but i really want to do this.
this has been a week of reflection for me. i really want to make a change in my life. i'm older and hopefully wiser now than what i was just a few years ago. i find my old tendencies to be so childish, and i want to seem and represent the grown woman that i am and have transformed into.
i guess i just don't really know how to do that, you know? but i'm sure i'm going to figure it out, with the help from my Father.
but, yes, reflection... i've been reflecting on myself.. as i do from time to time. analyzing my life and the choices i've made and my overall happiness. and i came to a startling realization. it's not bad, actually it's really good. i've realized that i am actually happy. i haven't been seriously pissed in God knows how long. people don't bother me like they used to. i'm more conscious of myself, my actions and my surroundings. God really has slowly changed me. it's weird, but cool.
my loneliness doesn't even bother me too much. yeah, when i'm surrounded by "happy" couples.... i get a little jealous and lonely... but it's nothing like it used to be. i can handle it.
but i guess i gotta be off. i've taken on a babysitting job tonight and need to get some things ready for tonight... i'm planning on making sugar cookies and carving a pumpkin with the kids.
fun times!